i don’t know if it is prejudice on people’s part but some think i am and i don’t know why. i am not evil, i am pretty sure of it.
judy
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Im sure you’re a nice person. I saw a quote before it was like, “many people think a person is cold, when really they are just sad.”
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poet, i find it hard to be able to talk and relate to people, i.e. at work, who are nasty to me day in and day out. i try to avoid them instead.
judy
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Judy,
I do not believe you are evil. I think it is part of the mental disease I have that I doubt myself a lot, however.
I had a job that was low in status. Still the work I had to do was heavy work, and I was supposed to share the load with coworkers.
They hired a new guy who did not do his share of the work. I felt resentful
I did realize I was not management, and his work performance was not my concern. It was not my concern, and people in management are paid a lot more than I was getting paid so that they could deal with the people at work. Then, I went home and concentrated on sending this coworker good vibes.
Shortly after that, he told me a joke that cracked me up! That felt really good. I was really happy I had gotten over struggling about his work performance.
Good wishes,
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Yea that’s good advice. Best to be around positive people 
In AA there are 12 steps. The fourth steps and tenth steps are about taking an inventory of yourself. Maybe you are looking at yourself under a microscope too hard.
maybe the thought of your being “evil” is just a voice…maybe a subtle voice…
Before I was on meds, I blamed a lot of bad stories I saw on the news on myself. I thought I was the cause of many of the worlds problems. It wasn’t until I started medication it went away. What are the chances these thoughts are a symptom like they were for me?
I am sure you are not evil, my friend! You got this.
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thanks so much for your positive replies and support. i hope things let up for me at work some more.
jayster your ideas of letting it go and being positive sound really good.
hugs to y’all, judy 
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