Yeah, I have similar problems every now and then. I don’t recognize myself. Sometimes it’s fun trying to put a face to the name though. And sometimes I like what I see and this may sound conceited but I like looking myself in the eye and acknowledging all the good things I’ve done and the times I’ve won. I may play dumb too much or wear a mask or play games so at least when I recognize my positive attributes it makes me like myself more on a different, good level.
When Alien spoke to me or tried to take over my mind or I was severely depressed, I was too scared to look in the mirror because then I’d see Alien’s monster face. Still is like that. When I’m ok then it’s fine because I see me not Alien