From time to time the thought I never going to enjoy this life and its experiences is giving me a bad time.
There is so much to unpack and I can’t and don’t know how.
I can’t find a place, a job, a friend which feels natural and good.
I guess I am sad, I am smiling the most when in sad.
Things I do don’t feel good, don’t feel natural or enjoyable. I judge myself the most that’s why I am never good enough.
I feel like I shouldn’t even talk or be seen by others because I “can behave better. Say something better. Be better” and I feel like Im nothing