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I can't get used to two


#1

I have a big sister who never wanted me to copy her. So I have trouble with the idea of two. Two girls. Can’t there be two of a kind? Not according to her. I’ve got to stop letting her control me.


#2

Me and my sister are complete opposits of each other. Just walk your own path and don’t let anyone control you. Be yourself. Me and my sister are very good friends, I think much is because we let each other be as we are.


#3

Well, the problem was I wanted to have the same qualities as she had and that is what she resented. I guess it’s just sibling rivalry. I robbed her cradle. I should have a smart remark like “What’s the matter, don’t you like to see yourself in other people?”


#4

What are your qualities? Why are you not happy to be you?


#5

I don’t think you understand, that when I have her qualities of happiness and confidence and security she walks all over me. I feel crushed like a bug. Have you never heard of a domineering older sibling?


#6

Oh. Now I understand. I’m the older sibling. I’d never do that to my sis. She has qualities I’d love to have but that is hers. I can’t be her.

Maybe you need to stay away from her for a while? Until you are strong enough she can’t crush you like a bug?


#7

I am away from her. It’s just bad memories, I have a big problem with them. We talk on the phone once a week and she is in charge of my annuity. So I can’t cut myself off from her completely. Besides, there are other people who are just like her. I have work to do on myself.