who are they ?!!!
those who i am taking to for 14 years untill now
they insist they are real ppl
they talk to me from somewhere
all the time they are the same i feel the same ppl
along these years i feel the same persons same ppl
they talk by the same way
i try to make understand and imagine these 14 years
they cant be real ppl at all how you are real ppl ? i told you stayed with me for 14 years ?how is that ?
they say why do you think 14 years is a big number we dont know why ?!!!
they say why do you think it is impossible that real ppl stay all that time ??
…it is not very big number …you see it big number why ?? …
they are insane really =D
thats why ppl living with hallucinations go crazy , get angry , attempt suicide
really sorry for that
14 years untill now !!!
Hopefully you can get some meds that’ll help with the voices. When I focused on them I’d get real sick. I basically ignored them all the time. I think it’s ok to ignore them. I don’t hear them anymore thanks to meds. They’re maybe a faint sound in the air conditioning.
really tiring hallucinations for me too
many times i think i m alone in this
but when i come here
ppl say to me that they are like me too
I hear voices and am pretty confident they are voices, hear voices and have no idea they are voices [till later when things improve] and everything in between.
This is also on a spectrum of loudness and perceived origin [internal or external, very close by or far away].
Also I am sometimes led to question all my recollections whether they really happened or not.
The only time I have been sure if I hear voices or not [since I first was psychotic, or at least believe I was] has been when I am floridly psychotic/deluded and then of course I am wrong!
In fact, then I am not even questioning or conscious that voices exist or ever did [from what I can remember].
I have also felt varying degrees of needing to respond [often out loud, sometimes shouting back] or/and comply with what voices direct me to do; even when I have been [almost] sure they are voices. [I apologise if all this is fairly typical I have almost no friends/family and they don’t hear voices].
Anyway! my experience in UK with many ‘so-called’ mental health professionals has been a lack of understanding [and sometimes] training about how stressful or not [also a spectrum!] these voices can be WHEREVER they exist on these previously outlined spectrums. I have been accused of ‘faking’ at times, especially when insight has been high [even when feeling compelled to do what the voices are telling me] and also been told by a psychiatrist [amongst other absurdities] that my voices seemed well under control [when they were shouting, relentless, disorientating and overwhelming] simply because I had a degree of awareness they might be voices.
I recognise that being autistic likely complicates my presentation but I feel let down.
I was discharged with the reason stated that my mental health team lacked the requisite expertise in autism to be able to help me and am left extremely reluctant to engage with services again no matter how bad things get [and I am now off all antipsychotics].
Sorry for the somewhat lengthy rant. I know how very stressful/tiring [indeed sometimes exhausting] things can be. [I hope I haven’t exhausted you!]
I wish you peace. 
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