My mom drove me all day today back to my treatment center, and on the drive we saw a lot of animals that had been run over. Seeing this kind of thing usually doesn’t bother me, but the voices are saying that it’s my fault that all the animals died, and I feel so guilty. I feel like an evil person or a monster. I think there is a snake inside my body who is controlling me and made me kill them. I am afraid that I am turning into a snake because the skin on my face is starting to feel like scales. Part of me knows it’s not real, but the voices talk back to my rational side, and I’m exhausted from arguing with them. Is there anything I can do to quiet the voices and shake the feeling that I killed all those animals?
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right. first things first hunni. how exactly are you responsible for other drivers hitting and killing animals on the road that happened when you weren’t even there??? it’s ■■■■ so you can stop arguing with your voices on that one. do not feel guilty or like a monster. you are none of those things. you ave schizophrenia. your brain’s language centres are over active which makes your brain produce voices. that’s it in a nutshell. they are not real. they are splinter personalities that your mind has created. they are not discarnate entities, spirits, snakes whatever the hell they like to call themselves. they are just you, your mind turned in on itself. they have no power over you other than that which you give them so don’t give them that power. the reason you feel you have to talk to them is because we are conditioned as children to answer people that talk to us but seeing as these are not real people you don’t have to do that ok? i know it can be hard when they are there 24/7 but the sooner you learn to deal with them, the easier you will find it.
as for there being a snake inside your body, that is delusional thinking. if there were really a snake inside you, you would be either dead or dying as the human body cannot tolerate foreign substances. there is no snake controlling you and you haven’t done anything wrong AT ALL. you are just very sick right now is all, so try and relax a little ok? you are a good person with a sick brain. that’s all it is. practice not answering back to just one accusation by the voices. just practice it, over and over. it does get easier the more you do it. then eventually you can choose when or if you would like to talk to them. all you need to do is practice and keep yourself busy talking to other people outside your head, real people like your mum or other patients, go on line, i’m sure facebook has a voice hearing page for people that hear voices. i hear voices too but i don’t give them the credence that you do because quite frankly they just lie all the time and i have no patience to bother with them. voices cannot hurt you at all. you have no need to be afraid of them. all they are are splinters of your own personality with different voices to your own is all. without you, they cannot exist. hope this helps hunni. xxx
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Would it help if a couple people told you that you are wrong and the roadkill wasn’t your fault? Because I know for a FACT that you had nothing to do with those dead animals. Is that clear enough? Because it’s clear to me. I don’t hear voices but I know from being on here enough that the voices lie. You’re not a snake.You are a person who has schizophrenia which is tricking you. Maybe talk it over with your therapist or psychiatrist. Good luck.
Okay, yeah I think you’re right. I didn’t kill those animals. I love animals and I wouldn’t hurt them. The voices are just trying to make me feel bad.
I don’t have a formal diagnosis yet, so I’m not sure if it’s really schizophrenia or something else. I’m just scared because they’ve gotten worse over the past few days even though I’ve been taking my meds more consistently than I normally do.
Keep taking your meds regularly and combat those voices that try to trick you with the knowledge that you LOVE animals which you are sure of. The voices are wrong.Your knowledge that you love animals is correct.
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well this is odd, my computer managed somehow to like nick’s post without me actually pressing anything at all! s’ok though. so long as it’s right, i don’t give a toss. anyone know anything about spyware? sorry to hijack your post 
but seriously though hunni, there is defo something wrong with your brain. it may be that it’s just taking a while for the meds to kick in or you may not have found one yet that kicks arse is all. you definitely did not kill anything at all and you are not a bad person. you know like nick said that you love animals and would not harm them and you couldn’t have magicked roadkill out of your arse when you weren’t even there when they died. try and think rationally about this. hope this helps xxx
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