i have my own apartment car and a small job.
but the memories… they haunt me…
it is often hard to look forward and to try once again to build myself a life that is beautiful.
i am telling myself build instead of destroying but others came and ruined my life so much and often it is hard to focus and build.
judy
I still remember my first apartment and my job. I drove an eighties car around to get to work. Good memories. I hope you feel better soon
I’m in the same boat 
… Somedays are better tho .I can pretend my life will be normal one day
I was able to live on my own when I was really young, and I did from age 16 on.
But now at 47, I find the stress of handling all the responsibilities myself to be more than I can handle. I rely on my husband quite a bit as a result and it’s not fair. I feel bad about it. I’m trying to do more and more over time though
With a positive mindset and by taking care of ourselves we can reach far. Although some days will be hard.