If it’s overwhelming there’s resources. It does sound like how I experience depression. It really is a serious part of psychotic illness.
If you are feeling suicidal, please tell someone — a friend or family member, a teacher, a doctor or therapist or call 911 (if you’re in the U.S.) or the Emergency Medical Services phone number in your country.
You can also call a suicide prevention hotline—these are available in the U.S. and in many other countries.
International suicide hotlines:
Suicide hotlines in the U.S.:
More resources: