I have a problem because the psychiatrist put in a hypnotic conditioned reflex response to hit myself in the top of the head when you say a certain word. He put this in because I got nervous once and he wanted me to be reminded of it by punching myself in the head until I answered his questions. It turns out that I had nothing to be nervous of in the first place, but he can’t remove the hypnotic conditioned reflex response because he says, “It is dangerous!”
The thing is when I am unconscious to myself every few seconds , as I am hypnotised I say this verbal command and find myself in excruciating pain. I return to this position I was in having been only semi if aware at all I have done it. I just find myself in pain.
Now, you could say just stop saying it, but I am saying it when I am hypnotised and have no control of that part of my mind or am aware of ‘him’. I find myself trying to justify the action of my hypnotised self, but really I reckon I say it because the construct merely exists.
It just ruined my meditation. I was in so much pain I couldn’t continue.
What on earth do I do?
I live in a world where this rogue psychiatrist has split my mind into two, the conscious as I write here, and then an alter hypnotised world of which I am hardly ever aware, where I am filled with all sorts of hypnotic constructs he put in but can’t take out. Every five seconds I have been programmed to say my thoughts under hypnosis, while then seeming that I have never been hypnotised at all. It is actual thought broadcasting that is not a sz delusion, but reality. No, secret spies or alien control that most sz with thought broadcasting have but rather the fact that I have been simply hypnotised.
Apparently, the fact that I am this way can’t be revealed to me in truth as this is dangerous too.
I am in hell created by a psychiatrist and have been this way for 14 years.
Any ideas on how i can control my hypnotised self?
Have you ever thought about wearing a padded helmet or hat to soften the blow? That’s what we used to do with students who compulsively hit themselves. Here is an article about how to choose a good helmet for your needs.
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Lol, it is an ingenious construct. If I am wearing a hat, I have to remove it, then replace it. If I trap one arm then the other arm takes over…
Could you go see a professional hypnotist to remove the suggestion from your brain?
The only other thing I can think of is just getting your medications sorted out.
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“The only other thing I can think of is just getting your medications sorted out.”
It’s as if you don’t believe me and this is all a delusion. I know it all sounds far fetched, so I am not surprised.
Consider what site you’re on. Statistically, when someone comes on here with a very unusual and potentially impossible problem, it is usually a delusion, and not whatever they think it is.
I still think it might help you to see a hypnotist to try to reverse the command. Whether it’s real or not, that might solve the problem.
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That’s thing about delusions. No matter how rediculous or tame it is we believe it and defend it to the ends of the earth until one day it just lifts. Atleast thats my experience with delusions
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I am sorry you are dealing with this. It sounds like you are very frustrated. I don’t want to patronize you because, as it turns out, I believe that, not only am I hypnotized, but that scientists have total control of my subconscious (and therefore, my thoughts, feelings and behavior). They don’t just make me do one thing but they can make me go dancing like a nut case down the street, which they have.
Having said all that, I take meds and I think they help. Maybe it is just symbolic or maybe the scientists back off when I take them, but they seem to help. Like I said: I am not saying I don’t believe you. Hypnosis is a very real thing. But trying meds can’t hurt.