Recently I’ve been dealing with this getting worse I know its embarrassing and we’re not supposed to talk about our sex drives but I find this really distressing. I was never like this before I started taking psych meds, this week it seems to be getting acutely worse. It exists on two levels. One, I discriminate less with the fantasies I’m willing to entertain. Its reached a point where, now, the ideas which turn me on were things I would once never have entertained, these are things most people are not turned on by. 2, I compulsively masturbate and am never satisfied.
The first makes my life hard because I feel as if, through my fantasies, I’m starting to lose my self of self respect and boundaries with other people. I’m getting off to things I find morally objectionable, and feel as if I’m leaving my comfort zone.
The second one bothers me because I get nothing done other than indulge my fantasies and it is starting to take a toll on my social relationships as well as my body.
Is it possible this was caused by me cutting my abilify dose in half? I’ve never heard of side effects getting worse at a lower dose. I feel totally stable at all times other than when I’m alone and aroused, then I feel almost as if I’ve entered a trance state. Its very weird.
I’m on 5mg abilify and 200mg seroquel as needed. It was bad before, this week it has gotten even worse. I meet with my pdoc on the 22nd, before then, what can I do? I feel like I’m on a slippery slope, but I seriously cannot control myself.
Please don’t be embarrassed to give me advice, I’m not trolling, this is a serious change I’ve recognized and I find it really frightening.