Overall, mine became much worse before pscyhosis,
now it’s not such as bad as pre-psyhcosis or during pscychosis, but it’s still SO hard to do ANYTHING sometimes.
Even now, this week I was spending several hours in a day to write my bachelors… and it’s so f**kin hard. My mind is somewhere else, I cannot help myself but I don’t want to read every example of bachelors given to my group (overall even now it’s hard to concentrate.)
The more I try to do my work, the harder it gets.
I believe I am reading way less for the same reason (my concentration, motivation and ofc depressive view to the whole world)
And sometimes I believe I am just lazy or smth… Because for me it’s literally hard to understand whether it’s my motivation or am I simply being lazy.
I cant focus or concentrate on one thing at a time I do multiple things at once And I have a lot of Motivation too much to be frank Here lately I have been feeling really good going to the gym still three days a week lost some weight and I am motivated for that and dedicated to it been going for four years no chance of me stopping I will continue as long as I am able Knock on wood I will be able to for a long time…
It’s pretty bad it may be the meds or just the cognitive stuff that comes with this. Will I ever get at least a tiny bit of motivation some day? Or am I just a sedated turtle floating in zero gravity? Trying to get back on the floor of a lab but not even coming close to it.
My concentration and motivation have improved with a healthy lifestyle, I can leave the house to go to the gym. Recently I’ve been busy studying for a few hours and that’s why it’s been difficult to get into the forum. During the day while studying, I realize that I can’t retain reading, even reading several times repeatedly, but I drink plenty of water and it helps me. Some moments I still find myself lying down, but luckily I improved a little from this situation.