The best part of my day so far was the cold shower. Searching for books to read
Dre91 That’s cool I really like golden retrievers. I really should get a dog. If I get one it will either be a husky or a golden retriever My cat isn’t as people friendly as your dog. The cat doesn’t leave my mom’s room.
rogueone Wow 10,000 steps not bad. I barely move a muscle all day. The only exercise I get is pacing back and forth. Highly doubt it’s 10,000 steps. I would probably need a nap also if I walked that much.
TheBest I used to read Goosebumps. The one’s I always liked were where you pick your story. It would have questions at the bottom of the page and direct you to a certain page depending on the answer you select. I should really start reading again. That’s good you’re reading. I haven’t read a book in about two years. Just started listening to books on audible. It’s not as good as actual reading.
@roxanna I’m sorry you’re having a bad day. I’ve had plenty of bad days myself. Life ebbs and flow between good and bad. Can you think about anything good that happened today?
Csummers I think your head running a marathon is better than the alternative. The alternative is what I experience. Thinking absolutely zilch, notta, nothing.
Daze What kind of music you listening to? I drink about twice a week. It still makes me feel like an alcoholic.
@Anna Waking up every single hour is no good. Have you tried trazodone? It makes me sleep about 12 hours a night. The bright side of your story is that your mood is improved. I’m not sure which I would rather have improved mood or sleep. That’s a tough decision. I hope you get on the right meds.
Imaillusion Whatsup! Let me know if you find any good books.
I just took my nightly meds so I’ll probably be going to sleep soon. My day has been pretty boring. It was filled with doing a whole lot of nothing. I may go up to the club house tomorrow to socialize and play pool. We shall see though. I usually flake out last minute.
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classic rock
with Earthquakes
glad you asked
I’m in my element.
@Daze I was just thinking the other day about how much better music is when you’re drinking. It’s sooo much better!
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I’m doing alright. Found out I’m approved for my sleep study. I went to trigonometry class. I probably slept too much today because I been feeling quite fatigued when I got up from my nap . Made it quite a while without a cigarette and caved in last minute because of fatigue. Now I’m working programming stuff and gonna study. All in all its been a good day. Going to learn from today regarding the cigarettes. I been feeling some chest pains so I know it is really time to quit no matter how many times I fail
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I had a fairly low-key day. Worked some, napped some, and otherwise visited with my oldest son and his wife.
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I woke up early. And I have nothing to do. I am bored. I don’t enjoy activities except for meditation. I don’t hear voices today. I kinda miss them. They were my only companion
Woke up after a good sleep but the village had had a blackout during the night. All my electrical stuff had reset.
I am sad.
I need more help and support.
My holy neigh who is one of the great loves of my life has started playing up and I can not handle her anymore.
I have handled her through so much .
Crossing bridges etc but with my lost confidence I can not even lead her anymore and I miss her so much.
Miss riding her and hanging out with her.
I want her to be happy so might retire her.
I moved interstate by myself about 11/2 years ago then I brought my neigh over which I regret because she was happier there.
It was just me and her.
Now I feel so alone.
My boyfriend was born here, he is surrounded by friends and family,has three dogs and his own place etc
I am so dependent on him.
I want more independence back aswell.
I am listed as living at a place where his alcoholic friend lives and I do not want to be listed there anymore .
I want community housing from government because my boyfriend has threatened to kick me out and I would be homeless if he did but if I had community house I would have that as my base and keep my things there etc
And not be so dependent on my boyfriend.
I still do not feel right about his family and friends.i think they are evil bad people that I don’t want in my life.
I came here all by myself and they were attacking me .
Not welcoming me.
The other night his friend started bossing me about telling me to serve them alcohol.
I did not.
It’s the way he said it too.
They disrespect me.
I am not ok with it.
Then his friend started tounge kissing him.
Homosexual and I wonder if he is spotlighting all night as he says …
I can not stand to be around them n they do not treat me well enough.
My parents are perhaps in denial and have enough on their plate.
Every thing they did not want …I am?
They had higher expectations of me.
The other woman who raised me who treated me as her own has stopped replying my text messages.
I feel so alone.
I might buy myself a dog if I am approved community housing.
My boyfriend does not want me to have it but I do not want to be so dependent on him specially when he has threatened me.
How can his friends n family treat me that way…
They knew I was here alone …
I miss my family.
I used to avoid them cause voices n paranoia and delusions.
Now I miss them n want their support n help but some of them want nothing to do with me n my parents have enough on their plate n do not like it when I am unwell etc
I plan on staying with my boyfriend but he does not want me to get my own place which makes me dependent on him.
He can kick me out any time n I would be homeless.
I really want my own place for stability n security n still spend lots of time with him but he seems all of nothing attitude n he had a stable upbringing which I did not have.
My brothers live close to parents n my sister n brother live close to parents.
I live far away from my parents.
They are successful I am not
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I’m sorry.
Maybe they are good n nice.
Stranger things have happened.
I feel I need more support and help.
Thankfully I might be getting some help from mental health people.
Such as meet someone every week maybe even.
I have not done so much today.
Showered and watched a film.
I’m sorry.
I appreciate my great man n my holy neigh who I miss but can’t handle
I just feel I need more support n help.
My symptoms are not too bad now thankfully
Love to you guys
someuser Trigonomery? Sounds tough but fun! I wish I would have went into mathematics. I’ve always caught on pretty quickly. That’s cool you got approved for a sleep study. I wish I could get in a sleep study to see what is going on when I try to sleep. I’ve went max five days without sleeping. As far as cigs, again I wish I could quit too. They’re so nasty, embarrassing and unhealthy. That makes three things - trig, sleep study, quitting cigs - that i wish I was doing. Color me envious of you!
val A low-key day is better than a terrible eventful day. That’s good you got in some work, socialization and sleep.
@Om_Sadasiva What type of meditation do you do? Share some youtube videos and advice if you can.
@anon35166066 I hate when the electric goes out. It makes for a long day. Hopefully you had your stuff hooked up to power surges so you didn’t ruin your electronics.
Zilija1 I couldn’t read all your posts. It sounds like you’re going through a rough time though. I hope it gets better for you soon. Love you too brother.
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it kinda comes and goes for me
many times I feel totally alone too
other times I feel trapped
I’m really depressed today
over fighting with people online over myths
and then finding out about possibly losing my house
I applied for a credit line increase on my card
and that would help a lot, but not sure how much we can get
When we were out in Des Moines we were trying to pay on two rents
and got way behind
but I always pay something, and now they won’t even take anything
it’s in the process of foreclosure
I’ve lived here 15 years about to the day today
Phil and I just blow so much money on beer and smokes and high dollar food
it’s not that he doesn’t have a good job, he does
Most all of my SSDI goes to pay other bills, so I count on him to help me out
but he really doesn’t, maybe 200 here or there for the mortgage
anyway, I’m making calls and trying to see if I can save my house
it’s really affecting my depression.
That’s ok. MC doesn’t use real meat anyway
Wentworth season 6 is now on Netflix
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I miss people
I feel as if my right side of my body is brain damaged and that it is in restraint in invisible cuffs.
I do not consent it.
How do I get out of it…
I know they want power of me.
I feel like I have No one to turn too sometimes
I do dishes etc
I really want help.
I want to be free from restraints etc
I want to be treated better
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who’s ‘they’
maybe some therapy sessions?
there’s people that care.
Yeah the trig is definitely gonna be tough. I’m going to need work extra hard to pass the class. Wow five days huh? A sleep study could definitely help you out. Maybe you could try appealing to your insurance. And cigarettes is being extremely difficult to stop. I’m going to try stopping with gum next