People are always surprised, in fact, highly sceptical, when I tell them about my diagnosis. I guess this has been a contributing factor to my denialism.
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I laughed out loud a lot. At work. For no seemingly apparent reason although I could sense humour myself. Near the end it was absolutely obvious that something was going on.
One thing I never did thou was talk out loud to the voices. I know some ppl do that
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Well, at least no one will ever say to you that laughter is the best medicine.
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How do i hide them? Simple… Ive been laughed at before so i dead lock the door and lock myself away - freezing the keys in water in the freezer. Seriously
When im too psychotic - i have a tendancy to get nicked in public. For opening my mad gob or getting into a fight - where i usually come off worse.
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Clearly we are all mad in different ways, which lends credence to the idea that SZ is not one disease but several.
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I hide them well, but my eyes betray me
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I hide them well. My parents sometimes can’t tell what’s going on. But I just kinda stare into space cause everything starts looking like a certain shape in my head. Before I was medicated there was no hiding it. I got evicted for taking all my ceiling lights down and detaching the wires. I thought I was being hacked
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Very well. I don’t think anyone can tell. I was wondering last night if I have any negative symptoms though. I don’t know.
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I don’t hide them very well… people notice it quickly if things are getting worse.
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When I was psychotic for such a long time, I didn’t really know anything was wrong with me.
I never opened up about my experiences until years later, as I didn’t trust the mental health services after they put me in a forensic ward when I was only 17.
Apparently here where I live if you have psychosis, you get treated by adult services.
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I have always been aware that others do not share my psychotic beliefs or experiences, so I keep them to myself and nobody notices until I want to disclose. During my last two out of three episodes I was aware that I was psychotic. The difficulty I am having since my last episode is that I realize psychosis does not imply insignificance. How jolly the days when I endorsed that fallacy.
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I’ve hid it for almost 15 years. I mean, everybody i met knew there’s something deeply wrong with me, just nobody could pinpoint it on psychosis. Nobody knew what’s really inside my head. That was the game to me, hide myself and my thoughts from everybody.
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I can hide my delusions ok but if I hear voices it’s difficult to hide it because I start talking back to them and pacing and my face goes into expression of distress and sometimes I cry. And I can’t look people in eye when im psychotic as I’m scared they’d see my madness and my thoughts
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I hide it very well. I feel if anyone can tell they’ll kill me. I consider myself lucky
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Idk why I didn’t tell anyone for so long. I kept it a secret for so long. Such a big mistake. Cos the illness got more n more traumatic. And you know, the longer you are ill, the harder the chances are for reversal
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I got diagnosed 4 years ago and refused medication. Which was a really stupid thing to do. I was fine except I had really high anxiety and every time I drank I’d think I was in a movie. Finally I went completely psychotic. So I’m on meds for good now. Luckily I don’t get too many positive symptoms anymore.
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I hid my delusions and hallucinations for 10 years because I delusionally believed if I told anybody that bad guys would come and torture and kill me and my family. One terrifying night I was picked up by the police and taken to a mental hospital where I agreed to be treated and that began my long journey back to the real world.
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I live with my parents too, can’t live alone… always need to have somebody around for when things go awry. I’m scared for the day my parents can’t take care of me anymore.
I feel this way too about my parents and sister who are a pillar of support - especially now that I’m leaving my husband
I hide my positive symptoms very well. I think anyway. Although I imagine that I don’t and that people can see right through me.
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