I mean not how are you feeling but more like do you think you are healthy or not and how healthy or not healthy are you?
I dont have delusions or hallucinations.
I dont think im panically sick at the moment. I dont have psychosis.
I dont swing over the border of reality. Im not thinking about the world were angels live.
But i think my understanding of this world…planet earth is abit impaired. I have no idea how this machene called society works.
I dont have outlook on the future infront of my “eyes”. I mean overall what direction im moving. Like usually people want something and they start trying for it. Its not that i dont want something…but i am sertainly not trying for it. And i dont “see” what i want.
It seems like world is not made from porche cars and golden rings…pretty houses and not even friendly people. Its made from things that we have never seen or understood. But i want those things.
But see that is the thing. Those things don’t matter in my opinion. Would you rather have a Porsche and be miserable or own a beat up Toyota and be content. Society has convinced us we suck unless we have a yacht. But most of those people are more unhappy than even some of us.
You don’t have delusions, you don’t have hallucinations and that is great. Find yourself something you enjoy doing and people you love whom you can spend life with and you are all set.
It’s tired. I worked today and came home and did schoolwork for my one class. I ate and puttered around the house and straightened up. Things are going along, tomorrow will be a busy day. I spent two hours laying in bed angry because the Beatles never got back together.
My health is slowly improving. Though my weight loss has slowed down I think it is still coming off.
I am able to do positive writing. Small gentle regular exercise and eat well. I feel alright about this.
I sleep a lot.
I am often negative, and I think I am still in a state of social confusion. The world and how it works is only sometimes a mystery to me about certain things, but that is small.