I have four trips 2, 4 or 12 hours away in the next 6 weeks. Very much the big event of the year (11 days working holiday / just pretty necessary towards that / watching my play premiere/ for a concert)
Out of these a trip to the Royal opera house for a pop concert and being there for final rehearsal are marginally less important… And hours travel away.
I have previously cut out a concert in London, out for this exact reason… Things getting shakey. But that time my husband stayed home too
This one is a lot more important to him than the one we cancelled and I’d love to go this time
I’m seeing my care coordinator in a few hours and I fully expect her to say that skipping these two if I can would be the best option
Further increase in meds has been refused. I’m upset because with that I might have been able to do all 4 things
The reason I’ve been well for ten years is by reducing my expectations of myself / doing less than I wanted for the fullest life I could lead.
Now things are very shaky before the big events take over… A terrible sign as this stuff normally happens after about 7 days away from my normal routine (mild psychosis while away) I’m certain I can’t last this upcoming trip of 12 days without relapse - I’m expecting it. My family are expecting it.
And it has the potential of being the worst ever …
I really do become a danger to myself and others - which you can probably relate to - but I’ve seen my sister killed in an accident while absconding and psychotic… So it really is life or death… How would they control me? They couldn’t
Are there any other options? Phenergan (drowsy strong antihistamine) to sleep every night for a while (haven’t tried this more than one night in a row)
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Doing only the essential ( while letting everyone down ) is possibly my only option
Your response made more send than anything else
Disappointing people vs relapse?
Priceless advice
I just have to make myself not do smthing I really really would like to do
I’m kicking against it already but that makes 100% sense
Ativan and the two others helped me through some though times but they are addictive so if you decide to use them just keep that in mind. They also relieve stress.
The best way I’ve found to not relapse is when you get confronted with the police tell them you are taking your medications and don’t give them any more information.
why is it called addiction is my question? My mom and I were talking about this today. Are you addicted because you have to take diabetic medicine for life? Are you addicted if you take heart meds? No, you need the med. So why does mental illness always worry about addiction - they want you to stay on meds, but lets change the meds even if they work because you could get addicted.
I have replaced my addictive ativan with a antidepressant but I have depression along with schizophrenia and addiction also. It helpd me with anxiety and panic attacks.
Lorazepam is a benzo, we get addicted to it and build tolerance. It sucks, but it’s true. A lot of people take it for years, some just need it for a few months. Depends on the person.
I guess I just see things different. I know they say some meds can be addicted. But if you need the med I don’t think that should be an issue.
My aunt has a severe heart issue and the pacer they gave her is failing so she can only have life-saving operations. She also has a severe back issue which causes constant pain. The back doc told her she could have surgery to install a metal spine or install a pain monitor in her nerves or take pain medicine for life. Her heart doc says she can’t do the surgery and her regular doc says he won’t prescribe the pain med because she will get addicted.
She will have the pain for how ever long she has left to live which by heart doc isn’t long. Who cares about addiction if you need the med?
sorry for being off- topic just found this out today. But it goes to my point of poster on her meds being refused. If she needs them to help her not just because she wants them, why should they be refused.