I have been suffering for over 28 years. It has been a lovely ride, but it has been very hard to get through. I am glad to get this far.
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I have been diagnosed for 19 years now. I would not call it suffering. There were a lot of good times together with the struggles. I am thankful and content.
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diagnosed for 12 years now. I don’t think I’m suffering.
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It’s not so bad. Suffering some now because of insomnia, but if I managed to get that fixed I think things will get better.
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Since 8:15 am this morning. Challenging day at work.
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I suffered over 10 years unemployed I’m happy to be on pension
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I think since 2004 or when I turned fifteen or maybe forever. I like to think that even though we suffer we can also be happy at times.
I think this medication I have been on worked and over time has allowed me to work on symptoms and battle this disease. I was thought lost to it when It started. Most people say Im in really good shape from how it was before. Lately, fleeting moments bring me clarity of who I really am on the inside. the real me–my personality seems to have suffered due to illness too–but i have fleeting moments where I am not in pain or suffering, where I know i can let go and then i have moments of true confidence.
Im introspective so that helps. Did Curiosity kill the cat? Would Rose have survived had she not fallen in love before the Titanic sank? Do dreams teach us to survive, are tools of adaptation and learning–not many dream. I have read that shamans or native americans used dreams as tools or learning to survive. If every day It rains and one night I have a vivid dream of where to find shelter, the dream was my instinctive necessity to survive the storm.
I have not been dreaming so much lately. had an unusual experience in a group of 4 people they suddenly all were saying upsetting things it just seemed like something was causing all of them to unknowingly ramble and all their words were hurtful about things I was thinking about–it was just really weird everyone talking over each other at once no one caring and no one listening and the one guy I wanted to talk to just staring at me like he was upset I kept trying to shut them down so he didnt have a panic attack when dude tried to light the warhead on fire my friend starts breathing heavy and I stopped him and eventually the one guy i was trying to talk to everyone was shouting over left–one by one they all left and im like wth just happened.
I had a couple years of initial legitimate suffering when I first got sick but I haven’t suffered much after that. Even during my relapse 7 years later, the suffering was only about 7 months, after that I’ve often felt bad or uncomfortable but I don’t really suffer. My bad times are temporary and I have good days. What more could you ask for?
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Im a firm beleiver that life is full of suffering no matter who you are. I see it as a necessary evil. If we didnt have anything difficult to overcome then we would never become the people we are meant to be.
Sz is just one of a multitude of struggles we may face. What matters is we dont let it make us begrudged and spiteful and we do what we can to ease instead of perpetuate futher suffering for ourselves and in turn others.
Anyway haha. Im feeling inspired lately. Been reading a lot of philosophical self help content.
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I suffered when I was younger years ago before finding the right meds.
I still suffer a bit at times but not nearly as bad as I did in my 20s
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My life has been messed up and crazy for as long as I can remember
Particularly since May of 2007
Not a single good day or a naturally pleasant mood
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I’m still waiting for the orgy that @Ninjastar said were were invited to.
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I was severely neglected and abused as an infant and child. I got emancipated at 16 . I’ve been struggling since I was born.
That said, I assume you mean psychosis. I was first told I was having a psychotic episode at 16. But I thought those thoughts from about 12 years old on.
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It was yesterday but nobody showed up except @Leaf and @anon55031185
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I’ve got a five gallon pail of Boy Butter that’s going to go unused now.
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I’m quite reliable in that way. 
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My therapist tells me I have suffered more than anyone. Surprises me.
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What is it like to suffer for a long time?
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Well, as far as psychosis goes, I also have been having symptoms for about 28 years, starting around fall 1994, when I was 15.
I suffered some serious abuse as a child (physical, sexual, verbal, neglect), though, been dx’d with ptsd especially pertaining to the sexual abuse that occurred around 5-6 years old, so my suffering started long before psychosis.
My life still is not what it “should” be, hell I “should” be a doctor, but things could be a lot worse.
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My issues have been life long, but SZ was from 16/17
I am 35 now
It has been a rollercoaster
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