I feel like that should motivate you to get to and maintain your lowest effective dose. For many of the aps there is a small difference in effectiveness between the lowest effective and maximum recommended dose.
Don’t give up hope for remission either!
Well this is the last day. 12 hours till my next dose
Have you experienced anxiety alongside the feeling of AWAKENESS at all?
i’m in my 50’s. i’m planning, since i have began risperidone, to take it the rest of my life. i only became treated in my late 40’s. and i do feel the episodes of psychosis lessened my iq. i suppose it could have been as someone explained, during that near traumatic state, information and intense emotions were ingrained. maybe that made knowledge seem irrelevant. maybe it’s my age. my mom died of early onset alzheimers at 74, and wore diapers in her 60’s. i suppose even normally the brain is less quick after 50.
p.s. i feel i live in remission (very slight psychosis) most of the time.
So you were a later onset person? Let me ask you a question, unlike you I’ve been on treatment for only about two years. Has my brain already remade this irreversible adjustment so I can’t go off antipsychotics ever? I’ve been on relatively high doses all this time.
I like to think the brain goes through a natural healing process in sz. Where earlier in the course of the illness we need higher doses of medication then after some time we need a lower dose.
no, i began having episodes at about 23. my family just took care of me.
in the beginning the ex when describing me recently to the doc, said i was near catatonic about 4 days during the episodes. we had our own language. i did not know mi existed. my episodes i called unwell. the voices, entities,…
as far as your medication, do research and ask your doctor. the episodes may be worse by far for the brain than the antipsychotics. i don’t know. my dose is very low and it has been that when psychotic i stop meds. it’s only that i trust my way of getting better. i don’t know by experience wise, that the medical model works. i just isolated, dealing only with those that loved me and being required way less than normal. my family would even go get my groceries when i could not.
It’s truly a blessing that you had your family helping out to that extent, good for you!
yes. they knew i feared the hospital. stole a truck and ran away as a teen. at the mental hospital i did not take the meds. woke hearing a kid screaming from a padded room.
i did not want any part of such cruel care.
Well, at least now you’ve made the decision to take the meds voluntarily.
Since you still feel low level psychotic off meds, why not consider giving no meds a go?
i lived till my late 40’s med free. when my sister was passing i panicked and did something, like going to a police station in a clown suit with a sword.
not that but like that.
i was smoothed over but i’m still embarrassed and a bit upset i may have frightened someone.
i did it on my own long enough. i also have a pinched nerve, take pain meds. i’m not very quick learning wise now either.
I lasted about 6 months before ■■■■ happened again. It was the best months of my life.
I do feel a little more alive, but I also feel anxious and on edge. And sometimes I can here this faint carnival music in the background
The music may be withdrawal tinnitus and not necessarily hallucination.
It has voices in it
I would say 4 days. But not enough psychotic in four days to being transported to the hospital.
I would start to “see things” but i would be logical.
I havent had the sirious psychosis in a long while but i also dont want to try.
If i stop meds for 4 days i get sick enough and i underestand there is something wrong with me then. And i start taking pills again.
Going on past experience its taken about 3-4 months before i go batshit crazy without drugs, but now im more aware of my diagnosis its probably about a month. I dont want to go back to the paranoid stressed out roger these days - so i always make sure i have my depot jab on time. Otherwise id probably get arrested for some bother or other if i didnt. Life is a lot calmer wirth my drugs…
@Moonwalker why are you sitting back and letting yourself get more and more psychotic?? in what world is this a good idea?? You’re smarter than this. Please stop this weird experiment. It is clear your symptoms are slowly returning. Do you really want to keep it up until you have to go to the hospital?? Have you not seen plenty of people on here make the same mistake?
@Anna I was only off for 3 days. I went back on on Sunday. I’m ok