Sort of winding things down. Still gotta take my antiseptic shower, my antiMERSA nose salve, night meds…still not feeling tired though. Probably peruse the threads a little more…
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@iconoclast
I can’t thank you enough for all of your kind and supportive words. I keep rereading them.
I feel a little better today. I am hoping I just had a little backslide with the TMS, and that it will start lifting the depression again. I have 11 more sessions to make this stick.
I think this illness is not my identity – I can’t reconcile that I have it, though, and that’s why I don’t feel like “myself.” I just compare myself to what I wish I were. It’s not helping, obviously. It just breaks my heart that the APs wipe out the good with the bad.
It’s your turn to totally ROCK tonight. And I have another (not Muppet) video to send to you later that I hope will make you laugh your ass off.
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You’re not alone in feeling that way @Pandy
I feel like my life has been wasted over the past 17 years. I look at how thing used to be before schizophrenia and how they are now and it’s just not the same. I wish I never came down with this disorder.
I hope you have better days 
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I hope you do, too! I’m going to keep trying.
This disorder is brutal, and it robs lives, and it robs gifts that could have been given to the world. Just tragic.
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I’m not doing very good to night. My pdoc were supposed to re New my prescribtion on sleeping pills to day, and he haven’t done it so far. My therapist says that he will do it soon, but I’m terrified that he will refuse it.
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