A few setbacks in recovery such as me being noncompliant on the meds, but after seeing the pdoc last Tuesday we continued on with the Abilify. But some good news is that I learned the reason I was put on Abilify was because it is effective for delusions, and I had no hallucinations so yeah, combining that with the wealth of knowledge I learned about schizophrenia from reading the actual FAQ’s I feel I am confident about what I know about this illness. What really stuck out to me was what schizophrenia felt like in a few simple words: “What I have and wish I didnt have are delusions, obsessive thoughts and what I dont have but wish I did have are the negative symptoms”.
I was confused about this illness and what are its culprits and now I don’t feel misinformed.
And my pdoc I’m not paranoid about him anymore it was really me just having a delusion.
We’ll see if the Abilify can tackle my delusions (my main culprit is delusions), expression of mood and paranoia (which I just realized was from a little hecticness that went about). It has done wonders for my anxiety and alogia. Its been 7 months on it and what a quick 7 months its been. I think having insight, having knowledge and being informed can make you feel assured. And its funny how things work out when you can say you’re set.