Whenever something positive about me or anything to do with my actions with other people happens, I tend to dismiss it as grandiose thinking
Like my brain just said pretending to be my boss saying ‘your a smart cookie’ like reading their mind
But it’s completely delusional in its basis, and also I don’t like thinking things like that because I think it’s sort of arrogant to believe things like that about yourself?
Yet as always, the negative thoughts I can always seem to think yea, ok, criticism taken on board and I will try and do better
It’s like some weird ■■■■■■ up type of motivation I am trying to explain here
However, I want the motivational side to be a positive one that makes me feel good, and not the constant feeling of being inadequate in whatever situation you want to apply this theory of thought to