I was wondering how/if others know when they are entering a new psychotic episode? What happens first? I am trying to identify what happens to me so I can do what I can to avoid a ticket to crazy town.
I feel like I tolerate a lot less, I get easily tired. I cry easier and have a generally awful feeling that something awful is going to happen. I wake up to spiders crawling near me. I feel like I want to hide away from everything. I am scared it’s happening.
Please share your experiences.
My sleep pattern tends to change. I sleep during the day and stay up all night. I isolate myself as well.
I’ve only had one psychotic episode so far. But given that I have deficit schizophrenia, the probabiliy of relapse is basically zero. Nevertheless I struggle every day with negative symptoms, which means I am not really in remission. I’d rather be a “regular” schizophrenic with several psychotic breaks and no negative symptoms in-between.
I tend to get high and start to write my thoughts down which will then form a delusional thought.
I don’t think I won’t become psychotic as long as I’m on meds though…
My head starts burning and i lose contact to what is real. It is as if youre to discover the world you lived in for so long has a totally different face beneath it and we are angels, rather than humans and that we are not who we seem to be. God is real. The threat behind this, is that youve spend your life unaware of being an angel and thus youve lived a sinful life, which further leads to hell. Or a cataclysmic choice between good and evil, while youre on the evil side.
Right now, I am fearing the return of the number one most important person in my life, someone who has been away for eight months, someone I am beholden to. Afraid I will suddenly be taken over by psychosis. It is difficult to know what your mind is going to do, how it is going to react, to what sudden extremes it will go.
Lack of sleep, and lack of control over my thoughts.
the only consistent factor i have noticed thus far (for me) is the increasing sense that things are out of control plus a deep-seated drive to “fix” everything before it’s “too late”.
so intense psychological stress and an anxiety spiral. wheee
Thank you for all your honest answers. I appreciate it.