Like I hear voices from the government very rarely stating that they will take me away in now 10 years. Bad things happen to people in this world. How do I know it’s not the truth? I hung out with some bad people I think and I hardly ever hear voices. I would take lots of pictures of religious books in the past and now wonder if this was a form of surveillance for terrorism. I just never thought of it that way. I just feel so unsafe.
You’re not a spy. It’s just a delusion.
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After talking to my boyfriend, it seems for sure they’ll take me away. I’m not really medically delusional. My thoughts have logic.I feel so screwed and alone. I shouldn’t be posting here since I don’t have schizophrenia. I feel so alone because they will capture me it seems.
This seems to be pretty open and shut case of delusion bud. Don’t stress the details too much.
I don’t know how to ease you toward feeling less stress about it, but I want you to know that you can be at peace.
There is not secret you know that the government has to stop you or something like that.
You say it seems. Yes it all seems to be a certain way. But what is the actual case?
Have you had a period of time before this delusion or have you been pretty much feeling this way forever?
What difference from then till now do you think there is?
These spy delusions are quite common. I had this delusion in 1999, 21 years ago. I travelled in New Mexico and I started having delusions that I was evaluated if I belonged to any spy agency, the result was that I was an independent consultant. Then during the same trip in one Indian reservation I had delusions that I went through some kind of ‘self-removal’ which made me to understand that my codename was Juan and that I was the KGB Vladimir, the NSA counterintelligence agent. At the time it felt so real, but now 21 years after I can just conclude that these were symptoms of my mental illness, paranoid sz.
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But my boyfriend who is really smart says I’m not medically delusions because my thoughts are founded on logic. I always believe what he says no matter what because I know he knows more than other people. The only problem is that I think what I’m afraid of will happen since my boyfriend thinks I’m fine.
I am just interested if you have been contacted by any spy agency. Back in 1998 I was contacted first by one consultancy in Miami Beach and they asked my permission to forward my resume to a US intelligence community member and two months after they forwarded my cv the CIA recruiters contacted me and wanted to interview me on phone. When I did not give my US social security number this phone interview ended and they said they mail me their questions. A few weeks after the phone call I received their questions. I never returned their forms.
No one’s contacted me like that. I had a call from the FBI because a peer of mine wanted a recommendation. I did not call back. My ex-boyfriend worked with someone who was a GOP operative and he once told me that he thought his grandparents worked for the CIA.
I’m worried about my situation because my current boyfriend who I thought was a spy before but now think is the devil (crazy as that sounds but the devil does exist in religious records) says that I’m not delusional because my thoughts are founded on logic. So now I’m paranoid that the things I’m afraid of will happen. I’m scared I will go to hell as a result of being taken away since I will be coerced to do bad things and since these bad things constitute grave matters I can still be held responsible and sinful for them. Not a good situation to be in and the only escape seems to be death but killing yourself is bad too. So what can I do?
Staying alive is important. I had told this story on the forum many times. When I lived in my auto in Miami and elsewhere in the USA (2000 to 2002) I met one old Jewish man in North Miami Beach. He told some of his story to me. During the 2nd WW he had fought the NAZIs in the forests of Poland. Instead of having sent to the concentration camps such as Auswitch he had decided to fight and there he was decades after telling his story. He survived. There is always the light in the end of the tunnel. You will survive.
I’m worried that I will be captured and forced to hurt people and then go to hell. Made into some type of dictator or assassin.
These may just be your delusions. Nobody is going to capture you and nobody is going to force you to do anything. The sooner you realize that these are delusions the better you will be.
It’s just my boyfriend is super smart and he’s always pretty much right about everything and he doesn’t think I’m delusional. This really sucks because I agree with him.
Well he doesn’t want you to be delusional but you are, that’s why he’s lying.
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My delusions once had me convinced I was a spy trainer. It was untrue and long story short abandoned my car in the middle of the road and a nice trip to the hospital where they let me go.
I have read these spy stories in the past. There was one story in one book that illustrated what had happened to one person. This person had travelled to England from Finland and spent some time there. After returning back to Finland this person started telling others that he is a CIA spy. After that this person went to the mental hospital and stayed there for a long time. I know it is easy to let the imagination to take over your mind
Mine is weird because I thought I worked for the CIA, then Mossad, then that turned out to me thinking ISIS wanted to attack me, then that I was a part of ISIS, then sometimes back to thinking I was with the CIA. The thing that sucks was at one point I had a dream where ISIS called me spy as if they programmed me into thinking I was a spy. I also thought I was a Russian sleeper agent.
I’m still scared that I will be captured.
Where are you getting all those names? Are you just researching Google and Wikipedia?
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You should keep busy with a hobby or work or something instead of researching such things.
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