Taking the WHO and GAF exams started me thinking on just how bad the negatives can get. I have been thinking that I am doing well because my voices and visuals haven’t really been bothering me much, so I feel “normal”, but the truth is, my negatives are really affecting my life and my family. The tests made me really think about that.
So how bad are your negatives compared to your positives? Are they more crippling than your positives? How do they affect your life? What do they keep you from doing?
Taking these tests shows just how good I am doing. I’m not depressed, manic, paranoid, delusional, hallucinating or lacking interest in things. I must be doing pretty good. My hallucinations are rather infrequent and harmless. My negatives consist only in not showering or changing my clothes. I suffer from occasional insomnia, which seems to be my biggest problem, according to me. But that just goes with the territory of sza.
I have cognitives but negatives I only have a little of on bad days. For example on a bad day I might be annoyed by walking up a hill or going to the bank but I’ll still do it. I used to have problems like anhedonia that kept me from having a peaceful and happy day but nowadays I go to the bookstore and show interest in everything and watch movies and enjoy life easily. I just have problems with anxiety, irratibility, and other mood related problems as well as low tolerance for hardship or stress.
Besides getting on this forum, I don’t do anything. I bought new books in the hopes that I would study and learn, and that lasted all of two days. I have to write down recreational activities on a to-do list to try to get myself to do them, and I still don’t (or anything else on the list). I don’t even attend my kids’ school functions because I can’t get myself to leave the house. I missed my son’s open house the other night at his carpentry school, and he was there building things- the only one asked to in his class- for demonstrations. I desperately want to work, but I am scared that I never will because of all of this. The Saphris has helped me so much, but I don’t know how to overcome this. I thought I was doing well.
Yeah…positives put you in the hospital…and negatives put you in the seclusion room of your own home, never leaving, never talking to people, never doing anything productive. Gawd, the last shower I took was like 12 days ago! That’s just gross but I really don’t care. At least positives give me an adrenaline rush…
I have a lot of cognitive decline, motivation to do things is a real struggle, even just eating is difficult. I don’t even know what all the negatives are. I’m sure there’s more that I just chalk up to me being a lazy/boring piece of ■■■■ that I don’t even realize are because if the sz. Until this forum I didn’t even know that negatives were a thing at all.
Positives don’t affect me too badly bcuz my meds help a lot.
Negatives are worse. I can fortunately still read and enjoy books and look after my husband, but lack of motivation has taken my ambition to write and paint away.
My negatives are worse then my positives for sure. At the same time, I am currently doing better then usual.
At my worst I can not leave my bed for a week or more, eat barely anything (have to be fed) no showering, not going outside at all. Barely talk, extreme oversleep.
Right now I’m not severely depressed which is really nice. I still have lack of emotion or no vocal inflection, I rarely leave my house. I still have difficulty taking care of myself, no energy. Poor attention span.
I don’t mind my positives. My visual hallucinations aren’t scary, in fact I find them quite interesting. I do get delusional thinking but generally I have some sort of insight.
I’m not offended. The thing is, when you have bad negative symptoms even the activities you like you are unable to do. You lose motivation and even passion for hobbies.
Not to mention turning off your alarm is very easy. In hopes of being productive, I have set countless alarms (like every 15 minutes over the span of a few hours) and it doesn’t do anything.
But what happens when you no matter what set a goal for yourself and just do it?Do people get emotional unstable or tired than or something?
what can I compare with?
Hmm. I can’t speak for everyone but I would easily get emotionally drained. Sometimes doing the simplest things can be exhausting. If I push myself to hard I would maybe cry or have a panic attack.
