My only positives are voices but those I can ignore. It’s the negatives ruining my life. I don’t do much. I don’t want to do anything. Even things I used to enjoy takes so much effort. I forced myself to watch a movie today. I used to enjoy playing video games but not anymore. Everything is an effort.
I’ve gained all this weight. I went to the gym for a month then I stopped. My home needs cleaning, dishes pile up, I need to do laundry and take a darn shower.
I wish there was something to do about this but there is not. All of this is making me depressed. I’m tired of forcing myself to do things.
The negatives are a constant struggle, but they are mostly unchanging for me. It’s the positives that can really derail me and take away my insight if I am not careful.
I may be right, or a I a may be wrong, but heres my theory on negatives:
Negatives are a very real part of the symptoms of many people with sz. But I think that dwelling on negatives only reinforces the idea that you are incapable of doing anything as far as Avolition goes. I know it’s tough. I know they are real. But I truly believe focusing too much on Avolition only reinforces in your mind that your not capable.
I struggle with Avolition and Anhedonia to some degree myself. I’m hoping Wellbutrin will help.
As far as your title goes. I think positives are worse. Negs truly suck. More Anhedonia than Avolition in my opinion. What’s life without joy?
As for me personally, I’m trying to find the min dose of AP that will either control or mostly control positives and still not affect my negatives as severely. Plus, I’m adding Wellbutrin, which I’m pretty excited and hopeful about.