Ok, sorry… Hugs
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@cbbrown, it’s obvious you suffer from low-self-esteem and low confidence. I’m not trying to be mean; it’s an observation. And these are partly why you let someone treat you so bad.
I’ve had these exact problems my whole life too but I still have managed to work and a few other things. Lots of people suffer from these too but they can still live independently or work or go to school etc.
The owner of the board & care home I lived in from 1990-95 knew me and he saw me work and enroll in school. He saw how I operated and he once gave me advice that I still think of occasionally. He said, “Nick, never use your illness as an excuse.” He knew that I never did that, but he was trying to help me accomplish even more than I already have. It was good advice.
I understand symptoms or I wouldn’t be on these boards but I’ll say again what AA told me, “Lots of addicts don’t want to quit drugs even though they are in misery because at least the misery is familiar.” The abuse hurts you and the as*holes make you cry and they don’t care even a little bit but I think you are comfortable there in some ways so it keeps you there. But the abuse will take it’s toll.
@shutterbug is a lot more blunt and more to the point than me (and a little meaner, lol.) and direct than me, but he speaketh the truth. I bet these in-laws of yours just get off on being mean. This is what they get high on. It feeds them. That’s a big problem I have with certain people too. I know my neighbors and some jerk teenagers just get off on seeing me flustered or confused. I don’t have all the answers, I’m just thrown out into life like everybody else and I don’t know what I’m doing half the time and I’m just trying to keep my head above water and I’m lucky enough to manage to give back some of the s*it in life that comes my way.
Anyways, I think under the right circumstances you could defend yourself but you are unlucky enough to have stumbled across some people who got your number and since they have low morals and low pride they take full advantage of the situation.
Like I’ve told you before, you should take an hour or more out of your day, 3 or 4 days a week and sit down and do some brainstorming and planning about your future. Man, you’re so lucky to have a computer to use. So use it! Look for housing, look for a cheap car, look into agencies that can consolidate any debts you have into one easy payment each month, look for jobs etc.
You know I wish you luck but you have to take action. Have a good night if you can. It’s not hopeless!!
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You’ve been given a lot of good advice here and i agree with most of it. The only thing i can say is i hope you take it to heart and get yourself out of this situation soon. The ball’s in your court.
Everyone has a past
we can’t erase it
I try to focus on good memories
I’m sure there’s enough blame to go around
with anyone’s life
Nice, @anon92220549. It’s called a positive feedback loop. Now that you’ve attacked someone who doesn’t deserve it, maybe you can go ■■■■ shame some rape victims next.
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