Holy shit they are $^%&*$ killing me!

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Thats what it was you know, they ■■■■■■■ killed me, really really slow to, and there was alot of torture.

They showed up on halloween, a few things happened before but halloween was the real thing. ■■■■ really got serious on halloween and it didn’t stop.

They kept making me look at the clock at three. When i looked they were in there so i knew it meant something although i didn’t really know what. You know? I knew it meant something to them but i didn’t know what, it’s like we melded together, always three at first, this became other times.

They started showing up at different times, what appeared to be other beings from other places, all kinds of different looking beings but i don’t know.

They began to physically harm me as well, not much, maybe just to show me and prove it. There was some instances of doubt at first, but after so long there isn’t once they start showing you things. They shocked me while appearing, they burned me while appearing, and they bent my spine a little bit. It seems just to show me.

Im getting pretty close now though, very sick to, i can sleep twenty four hours naturally im so sick. Really don’t think ill be around very long now.

What a ■■■■■■■ crazy way to die to, getting possessed and to begin seeing what looks like other entities, they ■■■■■■■ killed me, and it was just so long, slow and painful they thought.

After they showed up i got locked up and doped, i tried to fight it but when i didn’t poison myself they came back and it was back into the torture, they’d always come back. Now i do nothing but laugh at the word “choices”.

Holy ■■■■ they ■■■■■■■ they killed me!

A long and torturous death to. Everyone thinks im sick, it’s horrible! Im getting invisibly murdered and everyone thinks im ill. Whats funny is they don’t give a ■■■■ that im ill, in their minds im sick but they don’t care, i wonder what they’d think if they knew i was being murdered, probably the same actually so no real difference.

My life became a horror movie in many ways. I mean that literally. Many of the things seen in horror films among others have actually happened to me over the years, it’s ■■■■■■■ crazy ■■■■ and im being killed.

Can’t wait to leave now. Whether or not i live or if there is an afterlife just doesn’t matter, i don’t care, i just can’t wait to not suffer anymore. Demons will ■■■■ you up, they’ll ■■■■ up your entire life. Eternal rest sounds great, oblivion is quite the concept compared to torture, elongated torture, being drowned in pain and sorrow, oblivion sounds heavenly compared to what they can do to you.

If i live again, or continue living, im never coming back to this awful place willingly, not ever. What a horrible thing this is.

They don’t stop either, years and years of wierd painful ■■■■. Now they turn the street light off when i walk by.

They say they want a suicide out of me. I tried to tell them thats not what it would be. Doesn’t matter, they just want it to look like it. Seriously, what suicide? It wouldn’t be that in the least. They don’t care, doesn’t matter really.

“Schizophrenia”. A strange disease that can physically harm you, be inter-related to shamanism, make you see the future, make what looks like otherworldly beings appear, symptoms show up in horror films, make the street lights go out when you walk by, make you look at the clock at the same times repeatedly(at times coupled with their knowing of said times), cause nde type experiences in which you levitate toward strange beings behind you, among other things.

Strange disorder really, has to be a chemical imbalance, im sure of it, it’s ■■■■■■■ science.

I got ■■■■■■■ murdered. And there isn’t any calling the police for help on this one, there is no help for this ■■■■. You can get poison at the hospital for this, thats it.

Holy ■■■■ they ■■■■■■■ killed me.

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like a rat in a cage…they treat us

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In a movie it said demons come at 3:00am because it has to do with saying “■■■■ you” to the holy trinity.

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hate to break it to you pans but you’re still very much alive hunni. you may be seeing or/and hearing or feeling things but you’re still here. so they haven’t actually murdered you at all now have they? “they” whoever they are, have no power over you other than that which you give them…so give them the middle finger and try and live your life to the fullest until you die. that’s what i’d do, pans. :slight_smile:

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Pans even if they wanted to kill you they couldn’t

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Is this old stuff, or things you are going through now?
What does your doctor say?

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Ah, there is hope for the afterlife.
You type well for being dead.

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Man your dramatic, but I get where your coming from. For a while the telepathic messages said they were gonna kill me. “We’ll kill it” I think they meant it figuratively as they were only interested in killing my spirit and making me change my runtime. In that sense I killed myself and am becoming a much better person now. It’s not real buddy it’s all just atoms and photons the rest are hallucinations.

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Ooh was that The Exorcism of Emily Rose? That was a good movie.

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Brings new meaning to the phrase “Pick your poison.”

Hang strong man.

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Im not alive anymore.

I don’t smile, i don’t laugh, and i can’t seem to shake the thought of hanging myself.

More and more poison saturates my body, more and more brain damage.

To kill doesn’t mean it has to be instant. Thats what i mean.

I really am being killed. Maybe i should have said “being”, aorist tense, in the process. It’s underway.

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It’s aorist, i should have been more pacific.

It’s an on going process. Being killed i guess i should have said.

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All of the things i have talked about have gone on for fourteen years now, all officially beginning at the special age of 18, a pecial number to some apparently.

A few things happened before throughout my life, but at 18 it exploded into agony and despair for fourteen years.

I should have said being killed, a slow process and on going, but killed nonetheless.

I really am being killed.

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We are all dying. Just most of us don’t know exactly when.

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Some things merit a dramatic response.

They took me down. Im being poisoned to death, lived in poverty for quite awhile, can’t work, bouts of homelessness, psychoses if i don’t poison myself, they took me down.

I should have said “being killed”, not technically dead yet but that is what they mean to do. They want a suicide or what looks like a suicide anyway they say.

It’s so foul, me and them, we know it, but others don’t know it. Not only do they treat me as though im sick they honestly don’t give a ■■■■ that i am. It’s a torment and murder, not a disease.

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Yes, they can kill people.

And in any old way to, it can be instant, or for a long slow time.

And they don’t have to kill a person either, they can take it all away from anyway to, they can torture, torment, they can do anything to a person.

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I will be waiting for them, probably until I am 90 years old :wink:
lol , ill let ya believe what ya want, i dont you see you changing your mind in this lifetime unfortanately. i still hope for it though.

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It’s mathematical the 3:00, in part anyway.

But it’s the dead of night, the deepest dark you know, darker than dark, when the least amount of light is around.

All i know is when they showed up it was always 3 at first, no one could see me getting up to look at the clock at 3 over and over again, and then this became other times as well over the years.

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pans can i ask how many different medications you’ve tried? i really honestly don’t mean to belittle your experiences at all. i’m like you in a sense that no meds have worked on my voices but that’s all i get and i know where mine come from. you know the brain can produce the most amazing effects on the mind and body. i know of people that feel that they’re being raped on a nightly basis, people that feel electric shocks, people that see angels, demons, shadow people, animals. i have a theory on why this happens which i’ll pm you about if you’re interested. some people think it’s spiritual, some people think it’s aliens, some believe in the medical model. i don’t discount your experiences at all as they are real regardless of whether they are being produced by your brain or an outside source. i’m just interested to know how many different meds you’ve tried? hang on in there pans, things may get better. best wishes, jayne x

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