Hello folks. I am making this thread and pinning it to the top of the forum until January 1. The holidays are a hard time of year for many of us. If you need some extra support, put a message here, and people will see it more easily when they log on. They can reach out and give you the support you need.
Same rules apply: no discussion of self-harm, no imminent suicide posts. You can say you need help with such thoughts, but do not be descriptive, because detailed descriptions tend to trigger these thoughts in other people. Any posts that break those rules will be deleted.
We will all get through these holidays. They arenāt the easiest time of year for most of us, no matter the circumstances. Now, with Covid, it can be even harder. You are not alone. We are all here for each other.
If you are feeling suicidal or having a mental health crisis, please tell someone ā a friend or family member, a teacher, a doctor or therapist or call 911 (if youāre in the U.S.) or the Emergency Medical Services phone number in your country.
You can also call a crisis intervention hotlineāthese are available in the U.S. and in many other countries. You do not need to be actively suicidal to benefit from a crisis hotline.
Just had a panic attack in a crowded market. Outside grounding while my daughter finishes shopping. Four more stores to go and no Ativan because Iām the driver.
This will be my second christmas without my sister in my life.
And like last year, my family is pressuring me to reach out to her. SHE said she didnāt want to talk to ME. I told her Iām here when sheās ready.
And again Iām having dreams about cornering her and venting all my frustrations about how sheās acting.
I am feeling very sad, and I miss being able to have the whole family together and do our traditional things.
Now I have to co ordinate every family event so I wonāt be in her space, or possibly not even at the same house at the same time as her.
I could very much use hugs and shoulder claps from my pocket friends.
When it was me who was sick I felt like it was all under my control, and as I gained insight back I began putting out the fires. It was all in my head so I could fix it, and I did, best I could. But now itās completely out of my hands and out of my control because my brother, who would never in a million years ever admit any mental illness or seek help, is displaying behavior that could get him locked up. We have to constantly watch over him and we try not to take him outside when neighbors are out because he might yell something at them.
I feel uncomfortable talking about it on here because I get the feeling it might come across as insulting to people with more serious symptoms, but Iām sorry, being schizophrenic myself and then having to be part of a caretaker network for a severely sz untreated family member is rough.
The hearing issues is what makes me hate shopping.
I have a lot of sensory issues. All the loud noise not only gives me anxiety, it makes it impossible for me to hear what anyone is saying with the masks on.
Dude, much credit to you. If he needs to be in the hospital, he needs it. Many of us have been put there against our will, and many of us areeternally grateful for it. Your safety comes first, and you will do no one any favors if you stressyourselfto the breaking point and then there are 2 actively psychotic people in the household.
Just went to pick up some food, and man, was the restaurant packed. Triggered my anxiety, big time. Now Iām home, listening to Christmas music, just trying to cope and relax. Itās working well.
Hope everyone has a good holiday, no matter what your situation is.
Thank you for the support. Weāre at the breaking point, heās gonna get help even if itās forced on him, I just wish it didnāt have to happen like right at Christmas.
Actually now that I typed that out it seems silly, and a little selfish to want Christmas to go well, but I always buy into the holly jolly cozy extra-family-time Christmas mood. For me itās usually not a sad time.
This thread wouldnāt exist if Christmas wasnāt the worst time of year for most of us with mental illness. It makes sense that he would totally lose it around now.
@Nomad You had āAutomatically unpin topics when I reach the bottomā selected on the Interface Tab of your account. I just unchecked that box. Did that fix it?
You might need to log off the forum and then log back on again for the topic to show up as pinned again for your account.
Sz brother dropped by and demanded I admit that Iām gay and have had sex with tons of men and have been spreading aids throughout the state.
Iāve never had sex with a man, only a few women.
I donāt feel safe with him around, heās violent, heās always hated me, the disease just amplifies it. I hope the cops arrest him as soon as possible. I honestly DGAF about him anymore.
