I used to write poetry of a sort but creative inspiration dried up.
Here are a few.
1975
I remember nineteen seventy five
chasing emptiness just to stay alive
hopes shattered and broken,
words of salvation never spoken,
I remember blame and then more blame
no panacea to soothe all the pain
I remember parental warfare
I remember no one was there
I remember the post mortems theyād hold
so much to say but emotionally cold
I remember confidence shattered day after day
Nineteen seventy five when blue turned to grey
The American dream
The American dream-fat ladies on therapists couchs
health food obsession meets psychologistās candy
The American dream- guns for sale executions to
follow,
Your right to shoot and your punishment to die,
The American dream- personal neurosis,
collective self assurance,
anti abortionist gas chamber caressing.
The American dream-momās apple pie
classrooms of children waiting to die
The American dream- wholesome and clean
liberal thoughts and reactionary deeds
The American dream-bizzare and mundane
continuous movie for the normally insane
Desolation cuts deeper than the knife
No pills this dysphoria can cure
this lifeāll destroy me for sure
nearly 49 reaching for a sight of ten
needing a glimpse of me now and again
Looking to trust,no trust to find
paranoia gnawing at my mind
disjointed days,emotional haze
itās always been this way
Wish i was free,born again
Wish for sunshine feel the rain
angry tells me iām alive
desolation cuts deeper than the knife
Falling star
I saw despair in a black bag
Felt it,touched it and threw it away
But once again it stood beside me
Crying out for a taste of anguish
I laughed,it was a joke,a fantasy
Then i looked down on the floor
The room shook and the fragments sharp
Tumbled on to the once golden floor
I bent down to pick up the pieces
And like a rusty needle they went through me
The earth went dark,oh so dark
I tried to smile,a vacant pit.
Laughter,what is laughter?
I cannot tell,it avoids me
There is just the darkness
And the broken fragments on the floor
(A poem written when i was 15 in 1972)