Hang in there @Wave. I’m glad you see your pdoc soon. Something isn’t right. But there’s a major plus side here - you have insight so you weee able to schedule an appointment and you knew you needed the meds. I hope your pdoc has wisdom on your situation and that you get the adjustment you need. Good luck!
You have good self awareness @Wave and that’s great. I myself would probably have been oblivious. And as if that weren’t bad enough, if the past were any indication, I would have been very resistant to advice.