I find sanity to be heaven. Things as they are without my thoughts about them are a million times better than the hellacious stories I come up with in my head. Like seeing a bunch of 666 license plates and thinking you’re in hell. Anyway, my main thought here is why schizophrenics think they’re in hell. I think it has to do with the paranoia and fear playing into each other. Our lack of a solid foundation for reality means that anything can happen, and because of that our imperfect nature means that we project our fears onto our reality and then perceive them back. So we are ultimately our own hell. The only way out I’ve found is to admit that I don’t know anything and just trust others. At that point I’m utterly useless and powerless, but I’m free. All my troubles seem to go away if I can just trust. The trick is checking your ego constantly and trusting another’s judgments over your own consistently. You basically have to admit that you have an illness at that point and a lot of me was caught up in pride to the point where I couldn’t do that. I welcome being wrong. My own hell goes away when the truth of things comes into perspective. I choose reality over fantasy, water over wine.
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Well said, @crazydiamond444 I like your expression “lack of a solid foundation for reality”. I find myself searching for something unchanging to come to when my mind goes in a whirlwind.
hell is interesting topic. my voices use all kinds of get scared technique. the current topic is the future death of my father. they say: your father is gonna die in all kinds of ways. i find it funny at times. i guess that would be hellish. but that is just another word. hell is just another word. voices are like trainning to get stronger. i like it. it used to bother me.
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