I’ve been getting all flipped out about all the people around and it’s been setting me off… I’ve been getting really frustrated with all the foot traffic and it’s been keeping me in…
I’ve been pretty agitated these past few days…
I have to tell myself that no one is going to break into the yard and burn down the garden or the building… no one is going to break in for any reason…
the people passing the foot path just want to go to the beach… I just have to let it go… trust some karma… and go hit the water…
I was worried on that. Was going to add maybe not go alone. As probably best to find a beach a lot more secluded then the more popular beaches. Which of course would be better if you were more familiar with the beach. I’m not familiar with your beaches so gets hard to help.
You’ve been through worse, and you are well aware of what’s going on; you said it’s a fight between the mind and the brain.
Which brings me to the conclusion that you will be fine. You always come through.
I’m taking a few days off before another summer class and getting back to my research. Apparently I have to write an “analytic plan” which is a section on how I will mathematically analyze my experiment. Got hit with that yesterday when I ran into my lab manager in the gym. He said to take this weekend off. He’s cool. It’s the 4th of July weekend, he pointed out. I’m just working out and being idle this weekend.
You know, people like you are why I am trying to give my life to mental health services. People like you deserve the best treatment. I was given the best treatment, which means I owe my life to the field. And oh am I doing my time. Signing up for selling my soul to become a clinical shrink. Working out like I’m in prison just to keep the image of schizophrenia literally strong. Anything less than perfect in the classroom is shameful for me.
It’s worth it, looking at the pasts of you and me, and looking at where we are now. I was told by the guy who evaluated me that if I overcame this, I could become an incredible shrink. That’s my end. By all means.
I know your part of the country is getting the heat.
Splurge on a small air-conditioner-a window unit. they are not that expensive. Some of those light blocking curtains help me. I work second shift and when the am sun comes through, it wakes me up. The curtains really work, and will also keep your room cool.