Did anyone here happen that Delusion lasted a year and then disappeared without explanation or excuse?
Now that she’s gone, comes something else, it never ends …
My explanation for my schizophrenic experiences seem to have changed over the years, now I’m really not sure what the voices are, I keep wondering if they’re benevolent or malevolent but I really feel it’s dangerous to trust voices cause they may be trying to trick me in some way. I do have a sense that Christianity is important and that there are adversarial forces at work that may want to confuse or manipulate me. It started out for me hearing voices outside my window and thinking the mafia was out to get me, then things like police were out to get me, or investigators of some kind, now I just think its something I can’t fully understand, it’s like I’m constantly concerned whether I’m a
Christian or not and I have strange associations and word play, I cycle through different explanations but I’m afraid I’d feed someones paranoia if I went on about it more.
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Thank you for telling me, my first serious episode lasted seven years Until I received forced treatment, and the last one started a year ago but everything changes all the time, new things appear
. It’s a relief to know that in others it’s like that, so thanks
Schizophrenia remains a mystery to me but I believe modelling my experience
of it in a Christian perspective has helped some. I need to learn to trust
in God more and remember that I will be healed if I am forgiven by the Lamb
of God in the coming new creation if not before. Sometimes it feels like
one of the only lifelines I have left at this point. God bless you.
I was not scared or bothered about the illness until a recent episode. But there has been struggle since then that i am not able to take care of myself on my own. But no one else felt that way. Everyone around me thought i read too much on internet and assume things. Still not able to communicate effectively. As per the question yes time and again feels like there is something replacing the older delusion and until there is a breaking point it does not stop i guess. Meds did not help me much anytime for some reason.
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I used to have the delusion that the Veterans Administration was killing off all of it’s veterans with the use of its pharmaceutical drugs. And all of the veterans were slowly dying off one by one. I thought my number was coming up next any time. I still believe this in a way. I feel trapped in the VA system with no way out. And my days are numbered. Just a matter of time. You see, I have no other way of getting the meds I need. And they know it. So, I’m trapped. The meds I need are ultimately going to kill me one day.
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