yeah I was going in buckets and putting it in the yard for a few months. also I thought that was the reason for the unusually warm winter we had last year. finally when i broke down and went in the sewer system, it wigged me out and I just took off on footl Luckily there was no charges and I just ended up back in the hospital
I get real superstitious when I’m not on meds.
When I was first starting to get ill, I think my sleep doctor noticed it and asked me a question that was supposed to make me paranoid. He said “How do you like that little van you drive around in.” or something like that. I didn’t understand what he said exactly, so I asked him: “What?” He then covered it up, but did an eye test on me and asked me if I see things that aren’t there sometimes. At the time, I thought he was still talking about sleep, so I said that I did sometimes when I was falling asleep.
Later I figured out what he was looking for. Checking for paranoia and seeing things. So then I did get paranoid and felt that all doctors secretly talked about me behind my back. I started getting migraines every time I had to go see a doctor because I was so nervous. And one time, I left my house because I was convinced that they were coming to lock me up.
isolation or being in a crowd trigger my paranoia.
anxiety also triggers paranoia…
Isolation and anxiety seem to contribute to my feelings of paranoia. When there’s no one around to talk about certain things I notice or stuff I’m thinking about, it makes it all the harder to stop it.
I made a comment about a coworker to my wife one evening and the next day he confronted me about the comment. I was sure the house was bugged. I quit talking completely even to my family.
Another time a guy in a drive through window at Whataburger mentioned something I had said in private too. ‘They’ were after me everywhere.
I used to think while driving, while not taking an antipsychotic, that people in front of me were trying to predict my turns, following ahead of me. For this reason I in most instances left a good distance between myself and the car ahead if it was going slow. In retrospect, any precaution taken while driving seems like a good thing to do, given how dangerous it can be to drive.
When I was in the grips of psychosis, or off meds completely, it would’ve been easier to say what things weren’t making me paranoid.
@Coldcomfort With me paranoid about people monitoring my driving behind me and you paranoid about people predicting your driving in front of you, we’d be really interesting in a car.
People staring at me really sets off my paranoia. I get mad and even sometimes start yelling at people, which is embarrassing. So that’s a main reason why I don’t like leaving my house.
Unfortunately I’m a very pretty girl, who dresses uniquely, so it’s just a fact of life that I’m going to get stared at wherever I’m going. I just wish I could understand the difference between staring and glaring.
If I knew that people were looking at me because they think I’m hot that would be much better then thinking everyone is out to get me and hates me.
But I can’t tell the difference.
I was paranoid and felt like I was being followed. I pulled over and pretended to write a note. I then got all the rubbish in the car and scattered it in a giant industrial bin near my house. I figured it would be a good reality test. An hour later I walked down to the bin with some house rubbish. Floodlights were on and there were people rummaging around in the bin. I was convinced I was being investigated after that. Now that the paranoia’s gone, I still don’t know what to make of it.
Men used to be a trigger for my paranoia. And young people, like adolescents. And children. Basically everybody but women.
That is just scary, @AuditoryCortex!
My paranoia is triggered all the time. When I use my phone I know they’re tapping it. When I watch tv I know they can see me. When I shower I know there’s cameras in my home. I know I’m being watched 24/7. It’s awful.
I get that a lot about ppl thinking of my thoughts and stuff like that. But not all the time they usually last about a day or two. I just gotta keep thinking it’s not real and that all will n ok. Also I can not think wrong in anyway. For they get mad at me. But I must veleive that they are not real because otherwise it would be really difficult to deal with therapy.
Trust me there is no cameras it’s your brain. You must learn about paranoid schizophrenia and it will tell you how strong that is and how it will help you understand and cope with your symptoms. If you use anything that may trigger this I suggest you to stop and just go to therapy and listen to their instructions but I promise you there is no cameras.
Altho the voices in my head talk and say horrible things when they talk, when I hear music or people talk I hear them commenting on what i am thinking as if they too could hear my voices, so I rather put my earphones to make sure that only I can hear them.
All the time. Especially when people are always confirming my delusions.
I’ve had people tell me that I can read their mind, that it’s possible that I remember my past lives, even that I can control them. Sometimes it’s a Pdoc or therapist saying this.
Also sometimes shitty people like to ■■■■ with me. Saying I said things I didn’t or I didn’t say things I did. Or they hear noises and pretend they don’t when I ask if anyone else hears it.
I don’t like these people and try not to be around them though. Usually I start crying then they feel bad.
Some times darkness triggers mine, isolation also does although I don’t prefer to converse with others, just being in the light and knowing others are around, alleviates my paranoia.
Isolation makes me more keen on hearing small noises and so I start thinking things like there’s someone in the house despite locking up and having checked the house before I try to go to sleep.
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