Oh I see, I just checked my own profile and it said I joined here 4 years ago today. Wow it’s been 4 years! I’m glad I’ve come this far.
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I’m glad you’ve accepted yourself for who you are. That’s amazing and you should feel that way. I think people with good perception realize how unconcrete existence is. The realization about that fragility helps make things more profound in a good way. It is a very liberating, zen kind of understanding.
I don’t want to presume because, as someone who got it when he was 27, I have no idea what it was like for you. But maybe it could be said you were born with a deeper perception.
However, I do not accept who you are because I think you should be taller. Like at least an inch or more (That’s a joke. I hope you got that was a joke and don’t want to punch me or something)
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Exactly!! It took a while but I’m ok now. I still have faults but at least I don’t hate myself so much!! I still must improve!
A deeper perception? No I don’t think so. That just came with time. I used to be very different than I am now. But as I gained experiences and insight my perception definitely grew!
HAHA I laughed at this a lot actually cause funny thing I always wanted to be 6 feet tall but alas I am only 5’11" 
such a cruel fate 
unfortunately I fell short! 
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Good! I admit I have radical ideas about responsibility/guilt/shame due to being a determinalist. (Which I am mainly am because I really like pulling out that term at parties) But one thing I really believe to be true is some people think they are responsible for more than they are. And, combine that with Sz and you get lots of feelings of guilt that they don’t deserve. Keep on improving always but try to see where your will ends and where the worlds will begins.
I’m sorry but maybe yes! Not in the having a glowing head and floating while meditating kind of understanding. But in the altered perception making it so that way you see yourself and maybe others in a slightly clearer light than most are capable of yes To be honest people see themselves so poorly that, while as a human it might be a great accomplishment as a house plant it is not so much. And now you know why I have a picture of a fern on my end table <.<;; (and yes that is an unlicensed and unsanctioned emoji.)
I’m 5’7’'. Once again I get caught in the fact I always hold out the hope that people are shorter than me. 'Course I actually think being short can be pretty awesome. I mean you’re better at hide and seek and you always get more leg room than those sucker tallies.
I’ve learned to have true empathy because of it. It took away my superiority complex.
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@antidepressant044 how much of a superiority complex did you have? I had a little one of those when I was a kid. I was kind of a jackass as a kid.
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It give me a lot off free time with which I don’t have what to doctor
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It was pretty bad. I thought I was above needing help. I was so proud of myself over the smallest things. When I look back on how I used to be, I cringe. 
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@anon48059102 I hope one day that you get to use all that free time for drawing. I know it is hard for you because you have a hard time getting yourself to do things. But don’t give up because they are always coming out with new and better meds.
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It has given me some of the things mentioned here, and also the majority of my paintings. I have painted some beautiful angels that have genuinely touched people’s lives. I wouldn’t have been able to see the angels or everything else I can see without sz. That’s why I don’t want to be “cured”… I would love to function better and to feel better, etc., but I take the trade because I see some amazing things.
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@antidepressant044 lol, I can understand that. I hope you kept a little bit of it hidden somewhere though. People deserve to feel good about themselves sometimes. Especially people who struggle as much as we do. So It’d be nice to be able to pull it out in emergencies. 
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@Hedgehog I’m glad you were able to do that. So you feel it has made you more creative in general or just that the delusions show you things you can use in your work?
I believe schizophrenia has made me more empathetic to people who I feel are ostracized by society.
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@anon17132524 Because you feel that way?
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Yes. I hope that I would be just as empathetic if I didn’t have schizophrenia, but it’s one thing to read about discrimination and another to live it.
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I can’t call them delusions. I accept that I have sz, but I don’t believe it’s necessary to throw everything I experience out as a product of sz.
I don’t just see angels and demons, I see shadow people and I see creatures and bugs, etc. Some of it is real and some of it is not. What causes harm might still be real, but I don’t embrace the harmful anymore. What is beneficial, I have no desire to eliminate or even label as a disfunction of my mind.
I paint what I see. If I didn’t see the spiritual world, maybe I would paint landscapes. Before I started seeing angels and demons, I drew a lot of animals… who knows.
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That is very true in my opinion. I’m glad you came to the realization but I’m sorry what you had to go through to get it.
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It sounds like you have found a good balance. I think everyone should experience a more fluid version of the universe which asks them to question their own perceptions.
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Thank you, @Futomimi. I agree.
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Definitely. Me too.