i am realizing that i have never been really good at learning life’s lessons. I feel like deep down i have been ignoring cues that trigger a normal person to grow. I feel this is why my illness has progressed so much. Now i am exploring the internet with the intent of finding ways of changing my behaviors, diet , thoughts and just plain old feeling better and i have such a hard time with following or even reading some of the suggested therapies. For the first time in my life i have set my mind to being a better person and growing up but it is such a challenge at this point. I am very frustrated with myself. I want to learn !!! My brain is being stubborn.
Anybody else like this? or was like this but feels a little better?
i am lost.
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I don’t know how old you are, but for me learning life’s lessons has always been the hard way, just by getting out there as much as I can. But I also, like you, read a lot and research in areas I need help in. It sounds to me like you’re doing what you can and making an effort, which is more than some people can say. Be kind to yourself.
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I would say…why do you feel ignorant? What makes you feel like you don’t know life lessons?
I have a hard time following or adhering to therapies so I settle for striving within myself to be more normal - im afraid that this is the best I can do to deal with this illness. … also when im busy I get a little bettet so now my concentration has improved im starting college and also looking for a part time job
Kate xxx
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in hindsight i have learned a lot i guess, but i tend to make the wrong choices time after time. I have an issue with retaining those learned lessons. I am no where near the person that i imagined i would be as a child. I let a lot of things slip by. I have a hard time forgiving myself. I know i have been sick asll my life but i feel like it’s no excuse. I should have tried much harder. Who knows. Maybe i couldn’t do it any different.
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i have this image of myself of being a real waste but everyone i know loves me so much and is proud of me. for what i have no clue, but i hope to feel proud one day
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I kinda feel the same about what I’ve accomplished but then when I think about how much of a full time job it is to manage symptoms I don’t feel silly about my progress in life.
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human beings over complicate everything.
life is pretty simple;
for spiritual needs 
- be kind to others and yourself.
for health 
- eat healthy food…avoid sugar…alcohol…
for love 
- be yourself…someone will find you attractive because of that reason alone.
for riches 
- a buddhist priest has nothing yet is content…you are already rich
take care 
dark sith is available for sermons…third sunday of every month 
…" AMEN "
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Thanks. I also tell myself life is simple. But my brain tells me otherwise.
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I’ve been accused of “not learning” before. There is a part of me that wants to remain separate. I see others not learning from their mistakes too. Hopefully, you will learn life’s lessons before you get to the point that it can’t be reversed.
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Maybe look at the opposite of what you feel is going on.
People hold me to the standards of doctors. I am not kidding at all. I have aspergers as well as schizophrenia and unfortunately I am the smart kind, the very intelligent type. People expect me to get in at least one of the clinical psychology PhD programs I applied to, and to finish one and then practice and keep doing research.
So I end up having lunch with rich kids with doctor parents while I am poor yet as motivated and effective as they are. It is insane!
Coming from the “I feel like I have an easy time learning” end of the spectrum, it sucks on this end too. I do have an easy time learning, and it’s just made life harder. Now I am expected to have letters after my name within a decade.
But I love what I do, so it’s okay. I don’t mind learning psychology all day. It is hard at times. The hard times are the interpersonal times. I am a black sheep. I don’t fit in any groups except here and possibly the top choice program I applied to, there I would fit in, that’s a very long story.
TLDR easy learners have problems.
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I see so many mistakes in others. always have since i was a kid. I decide not to judge people, then i find myself judging people again. It’s a battle. I try to see and correct my flaws and most of the time i go back to it, but i have recently noticed that i am more open to family and friends and that’s progress i guess. And i also have been off drugs for a good 4 or 5 yrs which is another plus. My father says i gotta take baby steps and 1 day at a time. In my head i feel like i should learn it all in an instant. It’s hard to let go and learn new. But i will keep trying.
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I think you’re doing great. Staying off drugs is very positive. It seems to me that you have already learned a lot. As for judging people, it is one thing to shake your head about their folly. It’s something else to engage in vicious gossip about them behind their backs.
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