Well when I was sick the voices were trying to convince me I was the next saint even though I did not want to be.
Is it a delusion of grandeur if you like to imagine your someone famous even though you are well aware you are not?
I donāt think it is. Because you know you are not so its just some visual thinking. Nothing wrong with thinking that if thatās what you want to be Imo.
I had grandiose delusions years ago. It was actually quite weird.
I used to think I was smarter than everyone around me, and that I had been born to teach an unknown person something that would save their life.
We did All About Me posters in 6th grade
and on mine I wrote
I want to be rich and famous and have my name in lights
ha, I guess I never left this small town though
and around here Iām known as Alec and Bethās mom.
Really.
Teach them what?
What was weird about your grandiose delusions?
Yes of course.
I feel omniscient, omnipotent, genius etc
Not omnipotent, but omniscient and genius
For moi
I do believe you are all-knowing
I can tell.
I am not omniscient, but itās just wishful thinking that is very tempting to make me think ooooh what if I can be?
I donāt believe Iām genius.
Sorry for any confusion
I do wonder tough if itās even possible to be omniscient. Maybe not?
Iāll bet thatās better than fortune and fame and you wouldnāt change it for the world.
Iāve gotten over my grandiose delusions. I can still be grandiose, but itās not so delusional more a bit of mania and not overly psychotic just a little exaggerated. Itās been a long process. I actually had to believe in myself MORE, in order to believe in myself less. Does that make sense??? I can be realistic now. Instead of grandiose delusions covering up the fact I am deep down insecure, I am not delusional anymore because I know now I am not worthless. So I can be realistic. Itās ok because I am great for who I am. Whether Iām messiah or Jon. And Iām jon. Ok??
I think realizing that youre not meant to be better than anyone else. I developed wanted to be better than mY exes partner. I never wanted to fight with my partner I went 3 years with no arguing bc I really didnāt want to. I did riki for a while I was teaching my baby sign and swedish. I competed against someone who I believed was better than me and sweeter.
He told me I was spineless, I was dumb to him⦠So, I wanted to be opposite. I realize Iām the hippie who wants to be organic as a goal. Just depression and anxiety got me rn.
Heās def a puppeteer with friends. But the remedy to my problem is I think to overcome this empty feeling and just stop focussing on a physical emotional heart response. The bible teaches against relying on ur heart.
Love is an illusion based of perception. And my key to rational thought is, the guy is almost 30 with a family⦠Iām an old woman with kids and a hubs I gotta let the old Adela go. She loved him. She adored him but sheās got to burn in a mental sense. So Iāll pray more.
When iām manic I sometimes feel like iām closer to God than I probably am. I try to be humble though. Iāve never felt like I was God or anything like that though.
I grew up with mysticism. Being one with God was natural to me. I have many mystical experiences and samadhis, I donāt know if it was so easy because of my schizophrenia and loss of ego boundaries
What are ego boundaries?
To know that you are these senses and mind. And this is you. If you have thought insertion or thought broadcasting, you lose your privacy and ego is lost