I hate this time of year. Since I got ill 20 years ago I find the holidays very very hard. It happens every year at this time.
Anniversaries are powerful and often creep up on us when we don’t realise it. The subconscious is powerful
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I hope your anxiety goes away.
Christmas is like a gobstopper of joy trapped in my throat, making me gag. The voices cry out in pain too.
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Me too. I had a Christmas lunch today with some relatives, and that’s most of my celebrating done. Have a friend coming over on Xmas day but I’m gonna treat it mostly like any other day as I don’t want to see my immediate family.
Feel a bit blue/deflated now and got another week until its all blown over.
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It makes Happy New Year a blessed relief.
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I don’t want to celebrate Christmas anymore.
I don’t want to meet these people.
I don’t want most of them in my life.
I don’t want them to have any access to me.
I “have to” meet some disgusting people who have always hated me and yuck vibes at me because my land lord is their family.
I’ll be all alone Christmas Day just like I am every other day pretty much.
All of them against me all alone.
As has been my whole life.
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