drewleo34: Suicide was pretty much the turning point for me too. When I started having vivid thoughts of killing myself, I knew I had to do something, and that’s when everything else came out too. I talked to a friend, she asked me some questions, and that’s what started me on the road to getting help. I’d thought about Schizophrenia before, since it runs in my family, but I hadn’t really thought I’d actually be diagnosed with it. I was worried, because I worry about everything, but remember I hadn’t quite acknowledged my own symptoms until that breaking point earlier this year.
pedro27: My ability to understand my symptoms and distinguish them from reality is closely tied to my stress level. If I get too upset, everything starts piling up and I get lost and confused, and that’s when the walls start melting and I think my friends are sending nasty messages about me to each other, and if it gets TOO bad I completely lose myself and end up crying and rocking and babbling nonsense. I’m not really that self aware at that point, though I might have a little part of me that’s still saying “oh come on what’s wrong with you”, because that never completely goes away.