What I say sometimes in situations like yours is that if you wait for the perfect time to do something, you may wait forever. Everyone’s different but I jumped back into working at odd times.
Once, I was in the middle of a bad relapse and I was living with dad in my late 20’s. I was addicted to crack, not working and doing nothing all day. And that was bad for me and so I was doing terrible. One day my dad says to me, “Why don’t you go get a job?”. So I went and got a job. Lasted a few months and walked out so I went out and got another job. Failed at that and got put in a temporary crisis group home.
I went through my relapse and joined a vocational program. Three months later I had a job and I’ve been working almost steadily since. But I got my job when I was still relapsing. And I’ve worked while psychotic before.
I’m not comparing myself to you, I’m just saying that people can work under dire circumstances. And you know very well the benefits of working.
I’ve been working at my current job ten years. You better believe in ten years I’ve been through some nasty stuff mentally during this time. But like Woody Allen said, “90% of success is just showing up.” You might know my story about how my mom died, I lost my housing, I injured my back, had to quit school and ended up being hospitalized after staying out for 25 years. I had to take two months off of work and ended up in a board & care home.
But I went back to work while I was there and my first year back I won the “Employee of the Month” award. That was in 2016 and I’ve been here ever since. Even with neighbor and roommate problems and physical problems.