My paranoia and anxiety are getting to me, to the point that I may call off work today. This is bad.
It all started because my apt’s property manager had a notice posted on our doors yesterday that there will be an inspection of apts today. All it gave for a time frame was sometime between 8am and 5pm. So, I’ve been sitting around the apt all day waiting, since I don’t like locking up my pets and I cannot stand having people come in here when I’m not here, it freaks me the hell out. It’s past 12:30 where I am, and I am still waiting.
I have to leave for work in two hours at the latest, and now I’m not sure I’ll be able to do it. I’m allowed to cancel class one time per semester without loss of pay, and I may have to do that today. I don’t know, I’m just all freaked out right now and don’t know what to do. I’m afraid to get in the shower to start getting myself ready to go, because they might knock while I’m in there. This is stupid; I feel ridiculous for freaking out over this, but I can’t help it.
Go to work xxxx
You have little to play with if you are only allowed a day off in a long period
One single day
This landlord can come around to seeing you on your days off
They can’t expect you to get leave for this
Maintenance will let themselves in if I am not here, that’s the problem. They will not wait for my day off. I just can’t stand for anyone to be in here when I’m not here.
Yeah, we’re all allowed one paid sick day per semester, anything more and I lose pay. I think that’s pretty reasonable, actually. They know I’m sza, pretty much had to tell them last summer when I had to be hospitalized and missed the last two weeks of the semester.
This anxiety is taking on a life of its own right now, though, heart racing and everything, this is ridiculous.
I thought they had to give 24 hr notice or something. Anyhow I would freak too. I get it. Call landlord explain that you leave soon for work and would like them to come now while you are home bc not comfortable otherwise.
I need predictability too and prob solving right in situation can be hard. And u need to know so I can take a shower etc… and I already struggle with organizing what’s ahead of me so I know what to do next etc
. Sry you are going through this. You aren’t the only one with this struggle. I think reasonable to call to explain esp considering shower situation
Anxiety and depression are linked
Schizophrenia and depression go side by side for most if not all
Since leaving hospital with chronic ‘lack of joy’ and a lot of spiralling anxieties
They gave me an anti depressant and I haven’t looked back
It used to cripple me generally and sometimes completely acutely
Anti depressants stopped it
I don’t do phone calls, but maybe I could email him. The office is nearly an hour away, so it’s not just a simple matter of him sending someone over right away. I know he won’t accommodate me, but I suppose I could at least inquire as to when maintenance will be stopping by.
Yeah, I haven’t really been depressed the past few months. When I do suffer bad depression is when my anxiety goes through the roof, though, and that is when I call off from work more frequently.
Emailed the property manager, and maintenance should stop by in half an hour or so. I still don’t know if I’ll be able to teach tonight, though, just because of how badly this has thrown me off. I have to be mentally prepared, mentally solid, to handle that job, and that’s definitely not the case at the moment. We’ll see, though. I’m still all freaked out.
direct your mental energy towards putting yourself in the inspector’s shoes as opposed to stressing. maybe they aren’t looking forward to inspecting every apartment and they are rushing through it spending 5 minutes in each apartment. maybe they will like your pets. maybe they won’t show
I think they’re just checking to make sure we’re not leaving out dirty dishes and leaving our kitchens a mess. We have a bit of a roach problem, so feeding the roaches is a concern. My dishes are done and kitchen is clean, so I’m not worried about that, even if the rest of my apt is a mess. It just freaks me out having people come in here, unless it’s a friend or something.
Take some deep, calming breaths. Remind yourself that it will be over soon. If you don’t have anything illegal or against the rules in your apartment, you have nothing to worry about. It is uncomfortable to have a stranger poking around your place, but you can handle it. And then, it will be over, and you will feel better. I bet you can handle class.
I totally, 100% get this. I can’t stand having people in the house when I’m not there, and leaving my pets alone with them is like x100000 more upsetting.
Take your shower. Make it fast. Take everything you need to get dressed in there with you. If maintenance comes while you’re in there, that’s good, because that means they’re there while you are. They’ll let themselves in, so just get dressed and meet them.
If they aren’t there before you leave, it sounds like you’ll only have to have your animals confined briefly. You’ll be okay, they’ll be okay.
Yeah, so I called off, whatever, took my one day off for the semester. I just have to hope I don’t have to miss another day for the rest of the semester. I’m still a little freaked out, even though the maintenance guy is gone. He took pics off the entire inside of my apt with his phone . He left minutes ago, and there was no way to shower and get ready, then make the long drive to campus and still be on time for class, anyway. Whatever, the day off will do me some good, even though I felt like an ass calling off, as I always do. I have tomorrow off from my other job to get my injection, so yeah, back-to-back days off.
. He left minutes ago, and there was no way to shower and get ready, then make the long drive to campus and still be on time for class, anyway. Whatever, the day off will do me some good, even though I felt like an ass calling off, as I always do. I have tomorrow off from my other job to get my injection, so yeah, back-to-back days off.