i am still crazy enough. but i saw the movie ‘‘life of david gale’’ and i understand relatively fine that we are marginals… and with our pills, we will stay it forever isn’t it? i was rejected by a man only because i am on meds… i try to be happy,its the main purpose after all but maybe for us schizophrenics in this world it will be a dream too? yeap… just be happy and everything will be fine, yeah…
my ill friend is so nice sometimes. she asked me once if i want to live with her when we get old because we both have problems with the men. not because unattractive or something i guess, but maybe because we are ill.
she is nice isn’t ti? what a girl wow. i love her for this 
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blablaing of a schizo still my thread isn’t it? yeah, i now i am not fine still but its human to be like this sometimes i guess…
You are lucky that you have a friend that you can relate to :). All my friends are normies and as much as they try to help, they don’t understand the pain and anguish that comes with this illness. I’ll check out your movie
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me i am the opposite. i am afraid from the normies… i am too focused on to be eventually perceived as mad… but i start to realize that my ill friends are going through great difficulties also… in the past, i was seeing only my unhappiness… social difficulties also as others…
We should switch lives for a day, lol. Wanna hear something weird? I’m actually afraid of other Schizophrenics!
I just got done getting in a big fight with my brother who thinks he is above everyone else. He said I am lazy and I could work if I wanted to…this is simply not true. He fights with everyone and will say anything. I forgive him because he isn’t christian. He’s also only 33.
hey, missjenny, i told it once here. in fact i have a lot of fears. i have fears from the normies but have some kind of mystical fear from other schizophrenics. it started once when i started to get ill. i had the insight that i am ill. one fortune teller told to my mom that i am ill only by a photo. i knew that, i was sure that the fortune tellers could see it. so i am anguished on this level too. and i think sometimes that the schizophrenics can hurt me also on this level. i was afraid by their mystical delusions. one sick woman told me not to look at her bizarrely once during one of my hospitalizations… i stopped going in hospitals after this.
this friend of mine i believe her and i like her because we are long term friends. and i got used to her in a way… i also have one ill lover but the main is that he is a lover… but i see him rarely, he is quite maniacal i think wow… so i have fears from people in general, for different reasons but i have them a lot here also…
You are very brave to be sharing your story online. I have some similar fears that I won’t go into but I really connect with your story. I am slowly learning face my fears little by little and with the help of medication, I find that I have gotten better. I wish the same for you Anna. You deserve that.
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I don’t know something about me cause people to ignore me mostly. I’m used to it so I’m not complaining or anything. For the most part I talk with my family. Even when I was living by myself my main contact outside of work was that I would call my family once a week so that they know I’m still alive.
i am lonely that’s all. i dont talk about myself a lot in irl. i saw a statement from a buddhiste once who said that we are all mentally ill. maybe this is the truth isn’t it missjenny? my mom is regular normie, i guess, maybe it isn’t easy for me to have her like this all the time…
If you don’t have symptoms after medication then u can act as if ur normal. No reason to dwell on the fact that you swallow pills. As long as u arent psychotic u can fit in. Well if u have neg symptoms maybe u will have a harder time integrating into society, getting a job and functioning.
The only reason i live on the fringes of society is because i have an overwhelming neg symptom alogia which makes it impossible for me to connect with people in conversations make small talk etc so i just keep to myself.
i think i’m rejected because i’m annoying and paranoid… no one really knows about my illness. people here believe in demon possession… they dont really understand or they’ve never heard of mental illness terms. people are not familiar with the term schizophrenia or bipolar.
my mother thinks i can be healed by reading the Qur’an (islamic holy book). she thinks the meds side effects are bad for me. its hard to read the quran cos its in arabic… and im not really that religious…
I have had schizophrenia for 26 years. It never gets easier. I am going to be 57 this year. I can retire where I work in 3 years. That still seems forever from now. I hope for the best but expect the worst. I hope I make it. We will see I guess.
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No, I was rejected when I wasn’t doing well. Now that I’m well, I’m less of a wreck, people seem to enjoy my company.
i’m not completely better but I still get reminders daily from my in laws that i’m sick. but they don’t see it as sick they see it as a reason to be called crazy and looney tunes. they think I use it as an excuse to cover up that i’m lazy.
People think I am crazy but I don’t think they really fathom what I’ve been through my whole life and now it’s come to this. It’s been this constant adversity and attack and I just would really like it to stop.
No, I’m not rejected. I was when I wasn’t well, though
I am much better now, but not completely recovered. I got rejected recently because of my schizophrenia. It wasn’t said explicitly but the guy I was dating got weird and later stopped contacting me when I told him. The guy I’m dating now isn’t too happy about it either. I think there are a lot of people out there who don’t want to date us because of our illness or our meds.
i’m not really rejected but i’m avoided by certain people cos there was a time i bombarded people with mail and text messages filled with paranoia delusion.