I have this anhedonia for my old passion, too! I drew and painted for hours a day. Now, I barely draw once a month for maybe half an hour.
I have started drawing again this week though, possibly due to effective sarcosine treatment, or maybe a placebo effect from sarcosine…i dunno. I’ve been drawing, though. I can focus now for longer and that’s what sarcosine is supposed to do. I posted 3 drawings to my little tumblr page this past week, as opposed to like 2 posts in the past 2 months. i swear i am not sent by the makers of sarcosine to promote their product. I’m still waiting for the other shoe to fall
I try to be creative sometimes. I have more than 200 ideas of songs in my voice recorder app. I tried writing and drawing. I discovered that I’m not musically talented (I have bad voice, my guitar is better but not quite) but I have this obsession for music. I’m trying to come up with imagery in my head, which I could do before a relapse but is difficult now. I guess going to places and meeting people is good for my brain. Being creative is number one priority in my life, though I haven’t made anything much. Does this make sense? Maybe I’m not creative at all, but imagining stuff is fun, and I’m dreaming of shaping something out of it some day.
I should post some pictures of my flowers this year, since I have joined this forum I usually have a great garden, its not really art but I enjoy it, and this year I will have room to grow food plants as well! my fave plant to grow are roses, my Grandfather taught me how to grow and make them bloom, so they have a great bit of memories associated with them.
I can still play my guitar but i’m currently unable to write right now for the past 7 months since my diagnosis. It’s like my higher level of thinking is gone.
Only just getting back into my career. It’s been 6 years. I can’t work the way I did prior to my relapse in 2010.
My work has to take a different path. I was a teacher, but I did work with some recognised composers, with dedication and determination hopefully that will be the next chapter for myself.