to fill up my time so im not just sitting on the couch watching tv or browsing the forum. it’s kind of empty though, i just stress myself out a little, by having scheduled activities which im inconsistent at getting done.
i sometimes feel like im trying to “adulting” too much, this new year is bringing me no joy in my life. I’ve lost all optimism it seems. i have no plans anymore, i can’t dream them up. i can’t fantasize about moving somewhere bicycle friendly because i have no money and am stuck here. o well, back to my activities, a little home cleaning, maybe i’ll get to the showers today.
Can you try reading books? I’m able to absorb parts of them… but I still do that thing where it’s fun and emotional to just “procure” them. Meaning mostly I buy them, but some times I use the library.
The library is a “funny” topic… if I’m correct on this, those in society who need less help tend to use them more…
Also blogging is super cool to me…(to echo my Goddaughter), and If people(society) don’t/won’t get this boy out of the well(so to speak) I’m gonna tell them what it looks like/feels like.
Loss of joy sounds bad. A few years ago I asked my parents, siblings, and old friend what they remembered me being into when I was young. I’ve been incorporating that stuff into my life since then. I take pics, sew, and I’m considering getting back into horseback riding a little. I live in a country area. Finding someone to let me ride their horse wouldn’t be too difficult.
Also I like going out with my friends and volunteering. Today I had a bad day but people at the volunteer center made my day better. It’s sad what I go through.
I sometimes repeat words and I can’t stop unless I just quit talking. I can normally catch it the second time I repeat now. I also replace words with something that rhymes with them. It used to embarrass me but I’ve accepted it as part of me now. I ignore it or laugh at it and the other person will do the same. So, what I’m saying is just accept how you talk and others will. Then convos get easier. Self acceptance has really helped me feel much less awkward in public. My therapist focuses a lot on that aspect of things.
A degree is just a piece of paper that costs money. I have nieces and nephews that can’t get a job with it.
My Mom made me get jobs so I found what I liked and what I hated.
One of the guys at work had a twin brother that got his law degree and hated being a lawyer. Just saying.
When you work find out which jobs need degrees. Some jobs you’re better off getting four years of work experience first. Then you’ll know what you need to learn if you don’t learn on the job and they’ll tell you what paper will make you advance. And sometimes even pay for it as a valued employee.