Feel stuck with motivation and life itself

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I know I shouldn’t compare but all my friends are way ahead of me in terms of their careers and health (one of them is finally getting better health mentally) and I just feel like I’m at a dead end

My ability to form good habits and do tasks is absent. I just can’t do stuff. Like I want to read or make music and sht but I just always choose to do nothing but listen to music everyday in my spare time.

I just want to do stuff but i just can’t and it’s been this way for years. And the repeated experience of failing to form a routine has been imbedded into my psyche. I can’t make a routine for myself now. Makes me think that I was suffering schz all my life and it wasn’t till two years ago that I realised what it was.

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The trick for me is to do be productive when I feel happier. I take vitamin D supplements which help with energy and mood stabilisation. Caffeine for happiness and energy too. Escitalopram for mood and I also use music for mood as well.

For me, what worked was letting go of as much stigma as I can and accepting my limitations.

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Do little things in steps to make progress on a new project.

So if you are making music, first step:turn the speakers on. Later, open your DAW on the laptop. Later still, tune your guitar or wahtever.

Just break it all into steps then it is not so daunting to get underway, if you see what I mean.

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Yes the association between task and mood is important, especially if its something you enjoy, like I guess for you it would be studying right? And yes, I do feel like I might need to get an AD at some point.

Supplements wise I only take this: https://www.costco.co.uk/Health-Wellness-Special-Events/Vitamins-Diet-Nutrition/Vitamins-Supplements/Focus-Factor-Nutrition-for-the-Brain-150-Tablets/p/411375

It’s a compound of different things, it sort of helps mood but not enough imo

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Yeah true.I made a post about going easy on myself before as I was speaking about this in therapy. learning music is hard for me, I am too impatient with learning it because I already want to be next level at it already lol, but I need to set my ego aside.

What do you use to make music with?

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I struggle with motivation. I have no motivation at all. I often felt I had negative motivation.

I thought the meds reduced my motivation, but the doctors told me meds can increase motivation.

I think psychological burnout from schizophrenia exists and is real.

It could be depression. I found that I lack consistency and resilience.

I think breaking down tasks into smaller tasks works for me as well as listening to music.

It’s good to have realistic goals.

Grit is something I’m trying to work on.

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My DAW is Fl Studio. i use my guitars and a m audio midi player connected to the laptop and speakers.

I use the acoustic to come up with a tune and then transfer over to the electric guitar.

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So you use the electric guitar to “paint” the notes on the DAW?

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I record live instruments like playing the guitar straight into the daw. I can edit the recording. I play live keyboards too. fl studio records note and automation for the keyboard. i can edit it in piano roll.

I don’t paint the electric guitar though but set a drum beat and play along recording.

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I see, I used FL studio years ago to make hiphop beats but I didn’t get far. I was thinking of trying again on Ableton but for electronic music

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I consider myself more of a musician than a producer, even though the trip hop beats i have been making are more music production than live music, and i am a newbie with instruments.

Ableton is expensive. Fl studio was the right price for lifetime suscription for me. I also gave up for awhile due to avolition but had it there for when i returned to it later. Worked out great for me.

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I think I havs ambitious ideas for soundscapes and ■■■■ and I’m not sure if FL could do what I want to do. I’ve heard in Ableton you can really fk sht up in that regard (in a good way)

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I think they are all pretty much the same.

They are pretty daunting to get to grips with.

Professionals use ableton, and if money isn’t a problem then the nbr 1 is ableton.

Even Fl studio is capable of most things though.

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This is what i did this aftrnoon and evening after working on the guitar tune over the week:

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Nice man. Link the track when you’ve done it, is it trip hop?

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Yes they are massively. But I want to make stuff so its worth it to me. I just need to work on seperating my grand scheme of making music from making art itself

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Nah, it is indie pop .

3 live instruments, guitar and 2 layers of keyboard and Fruity pad controller for the drums.

I have to write the lyrics and sing it into my microphone tomorrow.

This is my last track. I post in song production.

It is a dark track, but considering i hadn’t picked up an instrument before 2 years ago and the guitar a year ago from scratch.

Song production once again! - Creativity - Schizophrenia.com @Mountain

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Ah cool, would like to hear it when it’s done :slight_smile:

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7 years ago I went back to playing guitar :guitar: after more than a decade of doing nothing. I practice about an hour of guitar and mandolin almost every day. I would not have gotten into it if I had not to taken it easy for several years. I would only practice 15 minutes a day. And if I wanted to play more I’d stop myself. That’s my secret of success.

I also decided to try popular music instead of using my classical guitar music books. Now I am addicted to buying music books.

I know nothing about music production on the computer :desktop_computer:. Good luck :crossed_fingers:.

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