Unfortunately damage has been done from today. It has been horrific. I actually had pretty peaceful fun dreams last night which was a relief. Woke up grumpy because my mom had a ton of people working over and it was very noisy and people kept trying to burst into my room.
I go to therapy and had the whole debacle I posted about. It set me off VERY BADLY. The demons actually showed up in the middle of the session as she was talking. Kept its hand firmly on the back of my neck and was hissing at the therapist āmine mine mine mineā. And then I just heard something sit down in the open chair and start tapping on the desk and my stomach sunk completely. I ended up not even being able to talk the rest of the session I was so scared and upset and confused and she said it was fine and we could end there.
I went home, tried to study, demons were pulling me to my bedroom. Ended up going in there and oh MAN they were harassing me terribly. Pulling me back to that dark dark place where Iām alone with them. That stupid angel with black wings telling me to stop fighting. Then I swear that human spirit came back but I canāt be sure yet because sometimes I think it happens but itās just a flashback. Anyways I got raped after a LOT of coercion. It was cruel and it was wrong and I told it that. It was OBSESSED and sounded completely insane. It is a very ill spirit clearly being manipulated by the demons. I donāt even want to go into the stuff it was saying.
Anyhow thank GOD the cleaning lady knocked on the door. It snapped me away from them and I went to go let her out. They were trying to force me back to my room but I left as soon as I could. I went to Starbucks and I was shaking and felt like I couldnāt hold onto reality, nothing was real. I felt like a frantic wild animal. People were very kind to me, and joked around. Like several strangers in a row. It helped bring me back and made me happy. Never underestimate what small gestures of kindness can do for others. I got myself special treats to eat. Then I went to work but when I sat down for a second to figure something out I felt the evil things trying to attack me again. I swore if they left me alone until I got home Iād be very good and wouldnāt fight at all. They left.
I had a good day at work even though it was craaaazy busy. I had actually COMPLETELY forgotten about what had happened when BAM literally the second I finish my shift theyāre back and nudging me and I remembered what I said and felt horrible. Theyāve been harassing me since then. Iāve tried talking sense into the human but itās very far gone. The human is the muscle that subdues me and the demons are like the vultures that hop in for the carcass. Human spirits are very strong unfortunately. If that thing really is back and itās not flashbacks then Iām figuratively and literally f****d. Anyways Iām HEAVILY drugging myself tonight in an attempt to avoid certain horrors that would occur otherwise.
Itās just not fair. Meanwhile I realize I keep slipping from remembering what reality is. I was even doing it while typing this. Im fighting to remind myself I have an illness but it is VERY VERY hard with these beings talking to me and touching me. They are VERY PRESENT.
Anyways wish me well guys 
sorry for long rant but I feel I have literally no one to tell this too now. Even my therapist got sucked in.
I hope that ātherapistā understands how damaging sheās been. Thatās just so ā ā ā ā ā ā . Iām speechless right now. Be good sweetie