Hmm that’s interesting. Well I’m not on meds I pretty much just went into hibernation a or like 7 months. I still have a lot of anxiety but the osychosis is mostly over but their are like leftover elements of it that I think might be permeamamt such as the tracers in te sky durring the day.
The thing is I don’t believe that the main theme of my delusions are false. Their were paranoid ones but they all fit into an overarching mythos. A mythos I have found to pretty much be the basis for all religion.
Their were specific episodes where the delusion was specifically terrible the ones where I was afraid everyone knew and was out to hurt me. But it fit into a larger context that is explained well in psychodynamic theory. To your jungs model I was having a confrontation with the archtype of the shadow. Durring these times I notticed the archetype of te shadow in film especially. The shadow man or hat man. And the myth is well portrayed in the original nightmare or elm street the story of darth vador and v for vendetta.
When the shadow takes on the gravity it does in psychosos I can understand getting lost in it but it serves a purpose all of ones repressed truamas are stored there.