Everyone knows. Thought broadcasting

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I don’t know how many of you have found out my true identity. I don’t know what everyone is thinking of me. I’ve started to be followed, I think they’re going to kill me again. I’m having a bad day, my thoughts have been leaving, we have our neighbour in the house plastering our fireplace, I don’t feel safe. I feel so ill, I’m not being very honest with people, trying to underestimate this experience, but it happens and people stare at me, some laugh, some glare. I’m very frightened,

I’m meeting my new doctor on Wednesday next week, my nurse will be there but I just can’t shake he’s heard my thoughts and knows everything about me, he’ll hate me, take me off all my meds or sedate me so I can’t stop them using my thoughts. I try so hard to stop it, I wear hats but its not working, I sing in my head or think of nonsense but sooner or later my thoughts return to the deep dark spectre that is my mind.

I feel this shadow descend over my head, I feel the illness descend, I want to return to my cave. I feel trapped, I’m starting to lean towards oblivion. I’m trying to act normal, but I can’t when I know they know the depths beyond what I know myself.

Even with my nurse I wasn’t honest about how this is impacting on me. I don’t know why.

I’m aware this may be thought broadcasting but it’s not helping saying that to myself.

What is your experience of thought broadcasting? What did/ do you do to try to stop it? Anything I dot mind trying anything no matter what it is. I need help, I just do t know what to do, it’s completely new to me!

I hope your day is letting you cope as best as you can,
Take care,
Meg

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I wish there was a way to fully reassure you that no one can hear your thoughts and that the inside of you head is safe from outside eyes. But I know how it feels too.

Logically, I can tell myself 100 times no one can read my head. But how it feels and what I tell myself are two different things.

Ways to feel better… for me… I go for walks. I used to draw or try to draw. That way if anyone was trying to read my thoughts… they would only see what I was drawing.

I would tell myself… If people could read my thoughts… they wouldn’t have to ask questions. So if they ask questions… then they can’t read my thoughts.

I also use to read classic fictions… so if they read my thoughts… they were actually reading a book. Then I used to be proud of casting “treasure island” or stuff like that back into the universe.

I have a feeling the eye of the storm might be this…

You had the most nightmare and traumatic experiences at that hands of an egotistical doc. I can only imagine how getting yet another doc is very upsetting and extremely scary. I’d say… let your nurse know how scared you are.

I do hope you feel better soon and don’t be afraid to let you nurse and your Mom know that this is really scaring you. They might have some ideas to ease your worries.

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I don’t know what to tell you. I fall prey to this kind of thinking as well. Cept I get messages from them. I try to rationalize it as myself but it just doesn’t work.

Believe me they won’t kill or harm you. They are just like you only they don’t acknowledge the darkness like you. They try to avoid doing that.

All in all it’s probably not real. Just live your life. My experience is so ■■■■■■ I’m not really credible. Good luck.

A quote from Carl Sagan
No longer at the mercy of the reptile brain we can change ourselves think of the possibilities

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i don’t have any constructive ways to suggest you deal with this because when it’s happened to me i’ve dealt with it in numerous DEstructive ways.

i just wanted to post to say that i’m sorry this is happening to you and i can relate. i hope your appointment goes far, far better than you fear it will.

bon courage.

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For me, I feel that people wearing glasses my mind.
not sure why, but i’m pretty self-conscious by nature.
When I look at them twice, I feel more assured that they can’t.

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hey meg. i’ve been through this a few times now. they try and convince me all the time that i’m telepathic but i know i’m not. i’ve fallen for it before but not this time. noone can read your thoughts hunni. nobody at all. it’s just not possible. i tried wearing a swimming hat once but it didn’t work lol. they are just voices. who knows you better than you know yourself, right? i don’t know if you hear voices or you just feel that everyone can read your mind but you have to remember that the schizophrenic brain is wired to find patterns where there are none. so if some one says something to you you will think they’ve read your mind because it bears a vague resemblance to what you’ve been thinking. it’s not real. tell your nurse everything and your new doctor. they will prescribe something to calm you and something for the psychotic thoughts. you can do this and remember we are all here for you ok? any time you need reassurance just type it in. i went through a stage where i heard everybody around me from dog walkers to shop assistants and i thought they were all telepathic but they weren’t. i was just very ill at the time. it happened 3 times and even now my voices try it on, try to convince me that i’m a telepath but it’s simply not true at all. try not to worry hunni. nobody can hear your thoughts. much love jayne.

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I’m still dealing with this stuff on a daily basis… It still feels like they rea telepathic, but I have learned how to not start the communications. Perhaps in a couple more weeks of being in this interference free state I will start to forget the torments I went through and what the experience was like. Then perhaps the delusion that started it all will start to fade. I am getting better either way, life is starting to resemble what it was before I got sick and I’m returning to my old self. Gotta side with Jayne, this ■■■■’s just not real.You have to believe that in order for it to go away, other wise you’d have to be extremely lucky. What do I know though. I’m not a doctor.

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nice one bryan. you’ll get there eventually. you’ll probably always have voices but so long as you don’t believe they are telepathic in origin then you’ll be fine. i know mine aren’t real and you know that if you and i were in the same room, you’d probably hear my voice insulting you too, yet you know that i’m not a telepath, right? i’m sure you’ll find the right med one day hunni.

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You still experiencing this?

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I am, but it’s not as nearly distressing as it was when it first appeared. Only when I’m bad and lacking my insight does it really upset me but most of the time I can rationalise. Are you experiencing this? It can be adjusted too, some people it’s only a brief thing. If you want more information, feel free to ask or message me.

Take care,
Meg.

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I can pretty much manage it now. It sort of something I have just learned to live with. lol When you experience it what are examples of stuff you think you hear people saying.