Almost went myself tonight…went to see Deadpool at the theaters (great movie) on the way out a couple guys got into a fight, they were obviously drunk, and one of them turned and punched the theater employee who asked them to leave. I lost it, I know this poor girl, she is a volunteer at the animal shelter, and she is only 16. I think I may have broken the first guys jaw, the one who punched her…the other tried to get me in a headlock and I bit him bad enough to taste blood. Took four other people to pin them down. Cops showed up and if the place hadnt had security cameras, I was told I would have been arrested too. Since you know I kinda hit a guy in the face with bar stool…a nice wooden one…well it was nice, now its broken…
So I’m just wondering if anyone else has run the risk of going to jail simply because their SZ made them less able to control such impulses…I really do feel bad for what I did, I mean I went way over board, but when a guy hits a woman, especially a ‘little girl’ like ths one, it just throws my meds down the drain makes me forget my self control…
Im glad you didnt go to jail. It doesnt sound like you over stepped. Most people take serious issue to punching women especially minors. Im not condoning violence but some people need the ■■■■ kicked outa them sometimes. This sounds like one of those times. Maybe the bar stool was a little much lol.
I feel the SZ makes it harder for me to control myself, it happens rarely, but it happens. I mean I’m pretty violent by nature anyway when it comes to protecting people, but when I see something like that, every voice in my head screams for violence, and I give in…
yeah that’s my biggest fear is that one day I will witness something that makes me go full psycho and end up hurting someone(s) badly enough to get me in serious trouble. Came close to that once, but thankfully someone had a taser, no joke, guy started beating a dog in front of my school and if the school officer hadn’t tased me I would have probably killed him. I was going to hit in the head with hatchet I used for my horticulture class…
Don’t I know it. This is the first time ive been threatened with arrest though, life kinda sucks when you have the need to protect people, but lack the empathy to feel bad for the people you hurt in the process…
I’ve been to jail a few times - jail, not prison, thank God. A couple of times it was for carrying a concealed deadly weapon - a knife. I never got within a hundred yards of anyone with the knife, and both times they kept me in jail for two months without a trial. I’ve seen guys carrying more menacing knives around on the street many times. I guess I was paranoid, and thought I needed to protect myself. I’ve also been to jail a few times for public intoxication.
Did the police know you were sz? I’ve had bad experiences with police reactions to me telling them what I’m taking pills for…(been through check points, etc… never been to jail yet, though)
They seem to see us as criminals and will charge us with whatever, or just detain us not bitter not bitter ok bitter
In my town the cops shoot psychotics regularly. The town finally served them a notice that they’d have to go specialized training for dealing with mentally ill people, since most were people who were recluses in their own homes, not running around waiving guns and screaming about Lucifer (although that did happen…last week and down the street from me True story!)
…that Lucifer guy, man I think he was also on drugs, so that didn’t help. He got shot, but he survived. I guess he was running around in people’s lawns shouting about Lucifer. A normal went outside and basically told him “God protects us, our Lord and Savior protects us” and I was laughing at the tv, like lady, really, don’t feed his delusion or drug trip or whatever…
The cops came, shot him, and blocked off the street for the rest of the day. It was really annoying. Cops make me paranoid and they were all up and down the neighborhood the whole day. oops, I went off on a tangent sorry
Maybe the police respect the rights of people for capital crimes, but for poor people on the street for small time crimes, they just do what they feel like doing, and no one holds them accountable.
Spent a night in a holding cell at the county jail for a DUI, place was nasty, I’m on a cot nearly half my size built into the wall which looks like it’s stained with urine. My breakfast the next morning looked just about as sanitary. Meanwhile they bring in a truck driver for driving under the influence and they don’t even put him in a cell, he sits out in the main booking area yucking it up with the guards about all the places he’d been.
I have been in jail once, but not for SZ or violence, it was when I was 12, I threatened a kid at my school, and they locked in a jail cell for about two hours to ‘teach me a lesson’. Lesson learned, I stopped ‘threatening’ people, and started beating them up…it was a matter of ‘go to jail for threats’ or be suspended from school for three days for breaking someone’s teeth…that is a stupid law, that its more of a crime to threaten someone than it is to actually do something…But I wasn’t ARRESTED that time, just locked in a cell for a few hours…
for those interested the threat was a good one “If you don’t stop making fun of (name omitted, a friend) I will rip your guts out through your a**hole and hang you with them”
Hey Dremulf I really identify with you. I lacked control over my mind and hurt my cat last year. I have been charged with animal cruelty. Two to three years ago, I had occasionally get into swearing matches with people on the street and acted in a threatening manner towards them. The past year has gotten better. I saw a psychologist and he says compassion and kindness is more important. People with schizophrenia like us often have a very strong sense of right or wrong in our mind, and when we see someone doing something wrong, we would act. However, think about what’s more important, it is often not the minor inconveniences or right or wrong in society. I tell you this, but often times I can’t even remember what my psychologist taught me. I hope you won’t end up hurting any being, as I did.