A few years back I started having “mental health problems” basically people would act weird and talk about unpleasant things to make me uncomfortable and try to get a reaction. About twice a year I would have “events” basically people circling around me touching their noses. Later I realized people can read my thoughts. Now it gets weird, there were voices from my wall telling me I will receive eternal suffering no matter what I do. There is a small indent on the top of my head that has been there as long as I can remember. I’ve never seen or heard anything that isn’t there. What can I do to escape this fate of eternal suffering? I don’t fear anything in life and I lead a completely normal life with no problems. I plan on living a long time, and am completely happy except this one experience. After a while the voices in the wall went away forever and occasionally people still touch their nose when they see me. The voices in the wall told me people were cursing me to eternal suffering every time they touch their nose. Besides this one experience I have a completely positive outlook on life and the afterlife so please don’t tell me to see a dr because I already do and our relationship is great. I just want to see if anyone else has had a similar experience or has any insight beyond saying “ it’s a mental health problem” because I have never hallucinated anything
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Work with your doctor to gain insight into the nature of your symptoms. Sorry, but it really is a mental health problem. If you came here hoping people would validate what you’re experiencing as being real, you’re in the wrong place. That said, welcome to the community.
I can say eternal suffering is a part of my delusion pallet but that’s all I can say. It’s a pretty common thing for people to obsess about even people who aren’t schizophrenic.
Welcome to the forum.
Having a positive outlook on life while going through your symptoms is a good thing, I suppose.
I had something similar with the noses thing except my voices told me I’m gonna live forever in a compound in someone’s house. Weird, a little different though
Thanks for sharing that’s really helpful to hear. Did the voices start in your walls and then go to your head when you switched rooms? Mine did. I have an indent in the top of my head like there was a hole in my skull. When I asked my dad about it he said I was dropped on my head as a baby. Then after he talked to my mom he changed his story to saying “there is nothing there” but there is clearly a large dent in the top of my skull. I don’t currently hear voices and I don’t believe anyone is out to get me in this lifetime. But I feel like a cow on a farm. It just feels like they are keeping me docile while they rack up nose touches. It seems to be some sort of joke or game. I don’t mind the thought reading and I have accepted that this is the life I was given and I will try to make the best of things. But I will not accept eternal suffering as I haven’t done anything to deserve it. The more information I can get about whatever device the voices said is in my head I can understand how it works and what powers it. The most important thing is understanding the power of the device, if it is powered by my body or some internal infinite battery. Please don’t tell me to tell my psychyatrist this he is a man doing a job, and I am in a unique situation no one will acknowledge as real. I need to understand the device on a basic level to determine if the nose touches are real or if there is infinite power in the device. Any information about this will ease my mind. I am trying to make the best of the situation and already went through denial grief and acceptance with the thought reading but I will not accept eternal suffering. I want to be clear I am not saying this is anyone else’s situation and if you all say you have mental illness I believe you. But for me this is a physical reality. People aknowledged my thoughts directly in public too many times to forget and I can no longer chalk up my experience to mental illness unfortunately
Hello @Sam2134,
Please take a moment to review the site rules, in particular:
You are seeking confirmation of your delusions. That is what you are suffering from. Not something you want to be told, I get that. I know you came to this site excited at the chance to network with other people with schizophrenia and have them validate your beliefs, but that is not how we roll. This is a recovery-focused community where we encourage med-compliance, therapy, and gaining insight into our illnesses and pushing them past them.
What you are looking for will make you sicker in the long run and you will possibly drag other members down the rabbit hole with you. Please stop using our site to seek confirmation of your delusions. You are welcome here if you can operate within our rules, but I will have to shut this conversation down if you keep going in the direction you have been.
Thanks for understanding.
v.
Actually I had a realization. I can just plan on getting cryogenically frozen at the end of my natural life. That pretty much solves the problem.