Hello I am wondering what it’s like to have schizophrenia? I have been diagnosed with schizotypal personality disorder and reading online I have a 48.3% chance of becoming schizophrenic and am wondering how it starts manifesting could anyone please help?
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Visit ur pdoc soon…
I have and I’m medicated but I wanted to know how it starts
For me, I did not notice. I know in hindsight what happened. I started to be paranoid. I thought my son or husband would kill me if I fell asleep. Always slept with one eye open. My son was 9 years old at that time.
Then I realized I could hear other people’s thoughts. It was a secret superpower. It gave me an advantage in every situation. Later I discovered that my thoughts were broadcasted through radio waves and other people knew what I was thinking.
Add to this other people’s thoughts telling me to kill myself. Finally I gave up and began the procedure to commit suicide. My husband drove me to ER and I was in closed ward for 6 months before my mom forced them to let me out of there.
This is the beginning. I had delusions I could walk on water because I was best friends with Jesus and other stuff that manifested in hospital. This happened and escaleted during 2 years. It did not all come at once. That’s why I did not notice anything.
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Thank you comatose. I hear voices when I’m trying to sleep but if I concentrate on them they disappear kind of like a radio almost. I get delusional and think people are trying to read my mind but it’s difficult to know if it’s going to manifest or not
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Talk to a doctor about this. Remember, the doc is NOT a mind reader. He or she will only know what you tell them. 
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Fish oil is supposed to help in the early stages of your first psychosis
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There is also a book “surviving schizophrenia” (I found it on kindle/amazon) if you want to know more about schizophrenia
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Thank you for all your help really appreciate it
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I’m not sure if that’s what I have or if something else, but how my own thing began…let’s see.
I know this year started off strange, I was extremely anxious and would shift moods from really depressed suddenly, and some times out of the blue I’d get a short bout of hypomania (lasting for at most maybe 4 days, but would usually last a day).
I think when I began noticing something wasn’t quite right, I was experiencing a lot of illusions, such as seeing things move despite looking again to see they’re stationary.
I was a bit suspicious of everyone, I couldn’t concentrate (then again I had concentration issues for years now). I didn’t know who or what I could trust anymore, even my senses were iffy for me.
Edit: I lost interest in socializing as well, or any want to be around anybody as well. That bothered me…plus add onto my bouts of mood swings, didn’t help. I also began to become very interested in witchcraft and things.
Oh one other thing, I also felt like people were laughing at me all the time and saying mean things, even though they were joking around, I felt super offended and easily.
My sz began as panic attacks and voices threatening me. Then I started getting paranoia that the evil spirits will access my mind and that my mind will flow out of my head like water. I stayed in pyjamas all day and hygiene was sloppy. I wrote on my walls. Cut my hair in bizarre style. Had bad depression and times of elated agitation. Hurt myself with scissors. That was in the bad old days with my first breakdown.
Here’s a really good article about prodromal psychosis:
avivHarpers.pdf (1.3 MB)
It was on Harpers, but has since been taken down and is available as a pdf now. Here’s another article discussing it:
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